Before, RPS, J2 AU, 1/1, [R]

[sandymg]

Comments

[peepingdru]

ohhhh lord....such mixed emotions! Beautifully poignant....I can sooo understand Jareds plea re the meds....sad...and amazing...how much is too much when the love really does go..Thank u for sharing your amazing talent::DDD

[sandymg]

Thanks so much for reading. I'm glad you found the story moving.

[trickling_sand]

Wow!!

This is beautiful and powerful and lovely and heart-breaking all at once.. I have no words..

I love how you played with the time sequences - and that letter. Jensen's emotions and Jared's. His episodes. They broke my heart in the best of ways..

It's intense and beautiful - and it's gonna be a long, hard road but that just makes their love even more beautiful..

Thanks for such a beautiful read, hun
<3

[sandymg]

You are welcome. Thanks for reading and I'm delighted you liked the story and found it moving.

[katsheswims]

Sad. They'll keep having problems, but hopefully Jared can get Jensen to really believe in him (in them).

[sandymg]

Thanks. In my mind, they do make it. But it's not easy and the future is never set. This one needed a sadder, less clear ending in order for it to work.

[yohkobennington]

I love that you went from present to past, and then to present at the end.
You're always making me tear up (or cry) *sigh*
Lovely story <3

PS: I also loved how you described his schizophrenia.

[sandymg]

Thanks so much. It was challenging writing the story backward no matter how much I pre-plotted. I had to read it over more times than anything I wrote before to make sure it made sense.

[oldbatj]

oh my God!!! This is so sad!! And yet awesome !

Poor Jensen,having to feel those panicked attacks over and over and yet knowing they hurt not only him but his beloved Jared......and poor patient, loving Jared, just wanting so hard to be the one beautiful solid thing in his tortured lover's life! How terribly sad and yet hopeful at the same time.

I'm so glad our Jared is so full of devotion and determination. Their lives will be so hard, but I do hope the lucid moments make it all worthwhile.

Beautifully written, dear!!

[sandymg]

Thanks so much. It was an interesting experiment for me to tell the story backward. A challenge. I'm glad you thought it worked.