Yeah. I forshadowed the hell out of this event. But kinda on purpose. There's something about knowing. Even having Jared nervous about it, that made it even worse than a complete surprise to me. You know? I'm glad you are enjoying the story.
Oh hell I kinda knew something like that was going to happen, Sam maybe his cousin but all the power and money, well it goes to peoples heads, and she aint gonna want to loose control that easy is she.
Damn poor Jensen, he's going to think that Jared betrayed him and poor Jared, he's going to feel guilty even though he has nothing to feel guilty for!! Poor boys xx
Three days for Jensen to come back. :( Not really surprised that he and Jared are awkward with each other, a little surprised Jared is angry, but I shouldn’t be. It’s difficult to deal with things when the person that would help with that is MIA.
Knew he’d never fit in either of Jensen’s worlds and what was the point in pushing it.
That makes me so sad. Jared had wondered earlier who he was angry at and it makes me wonder if perhaps it wasn’t ‘who’ but ‘what’. I know Jared wants Jensen to remember who he is, to reclaim his past, and to be off the streets. Jared’s kind of in limbo right now and is feeling helpless. Well, you put it into words much better than I can:
He couldn’t stay pissed and he couldn’t stay away and he couldn’t really have Jensen. But he didn’t know how to do without.
And this:
Drawing Jensen closer, Jared consciously thought the words for the first time. They flowed through his heart in time with the blood pounding in his veins. Thump, thump, thump. A rhythm of three. They were quickly followed with three
( ... )
I have such a bad feeling about the evaluation. And when the nurse came out to collect Jensen and said he was doing the right thing, alarm bells started going off immediately. I wanted Jared to grab Jensen and get the hell out of there.
And, oh man, I was right! Being in the legal field, it is plausible that the Court would order a 24 hour observation, but it’s also something that Sam’s attorney could have requested. But still, I am going about as crazy as Jared knowing Jensen is there, that Jared can’t see him. I can’t even imagine what Jensen is thinking. He was so nervous, so scared - I hope he doesn’t think Jared lied to him.
I thought you captured Jared’s freak-out so well, jumping from one thing to another, accusing Jim being a moron and Jeff being in on it (the line about the pieces of silver was excellent). I know Jared feels lower than dirt, but Jeff is right, Jared didn’t know, couldn’t have known. Gosh, I hope both Jared and Jensen can survive this.
This was very hard to write. Throughout the entire story up to this point there are endless references where Jared tells Jensen to trust him. That he'd never make Jensen do something he didn't want. And we know how Jensen feels about doctors and the abuse he suffered (although we don't know all of that). Suffice to say he was an amazingly handsome very young man in a very poorly run facility.
So I really felt the sense of absolute betrayal that Jared felt in this. It's beyond what his friends feel or realize. The story hangs on trust. It's a theme that runs throughout and so this break of that trust really hurt to write.
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Damn poor Jensen, he's going to think that Jared betrayed him and poor Jared, he's going to feel guilty even though he has nothing to feel guilty for!! Poor boys xx
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Knew he’d never fit in either of Jensen’s worlds and what was the point in pushing it.
That makes me so sad. Jared had wondered earlier who he was angry at and it makes me wonder if perhaps it wasn’t ‘who’ but ‘what’. I know Jared wants Jensen to remember who he is, to reclaim his past, and to be off the streets. Jared’s kind of in limbo right now and is feeling helpless. Well, you put it into words much better than I can:
He couldn’t stay pissed and he couldn’t stay away and he couldn’t really have Jensen. But he didn’t know how to do without.
And this:
Drawing Jensen closer, Jared consciously thought the words for the first time. They flowed through his heart in time with the blood pounding in his veins. Thump, thump, thump. A rhythm of three. They were quickly followed with three ( ... )
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And, oh man, I was right! Being in the legal field, it is plausible that the Court would order a 24 hour observation, but it’s also something that Sam’s attorney could have requested. But still, I am going about as crazy as Jared knowing Jensen is there, that Jared can’t see him. I can’t even imagine what Jensen is thinking. He was so nervous, so scared - I hope he doesn’t think Jared lied to him.
I thought you captured Jared’s freak-out so well, jumping from one thing to another, accusing Jim being a moron and Jeff being in on it (the line about the pieces of silver was excellent). I know Jared feels lower than dirt, but Jeff is right, Jared didn’t know, couldn’t have known. Gosh, I hope both Jared and Jensen can survive this.
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So I really felt the sense of absolute betrayal that Jared felt in this. It's beyond what his friends feel or realize. The story hangs on trust. It's a theme that runs throughout and so this break of that trust really hurt to write.
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