Why I don't think I'll ever love again or love or have loved

[salvadorescobar]

I can't decide on anything. Just knowing every future relationship I will ever have is marred by my own inabilities, my own disastrous tendencies and willful acts of self mutilation (symbolic, I swear) just tears me to pieces. I haven't decided if I'll ever love again, or if I've ever loved before, for that matter. It's hard to tell what was

Comments

[jepeutimaginer]

It seems much easier to fall out of love with someone than to love them in earnest.

[sophrosyne]

god you hit that dead-on clay.

[kuzamono]

I know you mean romantic love, but there is no love greater than the love you discover when you have a baby. I don't know if it's the same with guys, but it seems like it's close. So if you never find the girl that does it for you, settle for someone you find attractive and companionable and make a baby.

Or maybe it won't work for you, but for me, it filled a hole I wasn't really aware of having.