To make me feel so damn unpretty...I feel pretty, and witty, and bright...

[salukfan]

 I posted 4 times in the span of time that's considered "July 22".  Shit, Sam, shut up, you're probably annoying the masses.

But before I do, I wanted to post this.

I don't often post.. well, I don't often post about my weight, other than the self-deprecating "I'm so fat and worthless" comments that I'm prone to.  I'm ashamed of it, in so many ways

Comments

[dinglehoppers]

Forgive me that I'm not able to give you words of comfort (because I'm inarticulate like that) but I want you to know that I really care. You're a good person Samantha. I've known you (here) for years now and have met you once, and I think you really are a genuine person, and that is very rare and wonderful. Beauty is only skin deep, we all know that, but I agree that sometimes it's very difficult to believe, especially when society constantly bombards us with superficial perceptions of what's beautiful and what's not. You do know that you're special, so you should start from there!! As for things that you don't like... well you can change it. Or alternatively, you can slowly but surely accept the fact that what makes you different makes you beautiful (lol song quoting) and learn to love yourself thoroughly. And when you're there, who cares what other people think!! It's your life, not theirs. And I shall stop here because I'm not making sense... :(

[salukfan]

You're not coming off as inarticulate, I can assure you that. And this post makes a lot of sense to me!

I appreciate the "genuine" comment. That's a quality that I admire in a lot of people, and am quite thankful that you referred to me in the same way.♥

It's definitely hard to fully accept that beauty is subjective, when your own subjective opinion of it is that "hey, I'm an ugly sod!" It's hard to accept yourself sometimes, and I hate that.

[princealia]

You remind me of something I did when I was in high school (and still a bit today) and started getting "curvy" before all the fat showed up, which was cover myself up in big shirts and jackets and baggy pants because I was ashamed of my body, and couldn't handle everyone staring at my boobs. I thought maybe if I could hide it, no one would notice, but people still did (I probably made it worse doing that xD), and it always confused me because I was like "...I look like a bag, why are you trying to hit on me? Go away D:" To this day, the only people I attract are old men, creepy African guys, and dudes who are all "yo bitch, you wanna holla?", so I don't think of myself as being any more attractive than that because that's the type of people who find me attractive. It's a weird psychological appropriation thing where you're putting the measure of your self-worth in someone else's hands when it should be the other way around, but it's not because you don't care much for yourself to begin with. It's a gross feeling I really wouldn't want

[salukfan]

I'm very guilty of trying to hide myself and my form, though I'm sure it only makes me look bigger and less attractive! It's so disgusting of us to see ourselves as only as attractive as only people find us, and yet it's so hard not to do. I'm trying to think back to the like, two men I've attracted... one I didn't even know, he just randomly asked me out (uh, no), and then there's Joe... who on the surface appears to be a decent, normal, nerdy-ass human being. So that's a positive, I think

[gypsychick23]

I really love this entire post. That's exaclty how I feel sometimes. Though Im not overwieght, I've god unruly curly hair and glasses and I am an ince shy of five feet tall. I know its not *exaclty* the same but thanks for this post, its a bit inspirational :)