Don't you love me?
Title: Don’t you love me?
Chapter/part: 1/1
Author: Saga Chriztine Pettersson
Rating: NC-17
Characters: Orlando/Elijah
Warnings: Slash
Beta: The lovely Arsenic arsenic_n_lace
Series/Sequel: My series with orliljah, so this takes place before Punishment.
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Authors note: This stories is made from a challenge in the group Walking Heaven called ‘Write to be written’ where you could requested a special story and the owner/moderator would assign one of those that said they would want to write one.
The request of the one I got was this; Needs to be Orlijah... they're just too cute together. I want a story where Lijah bottoms (thats a must) and they're both kinda uncertain about their relationship. Lij flat out wants to come out to everyone but Orli doesn't know if he can. Or something along those lines. I know theres a bunch of stories like that but if you could put a unique twist to it, it'd really help.... TANKS!!!
Disclaimer: All I can claim as mine is the way I written the story (the idea I had) and the people that aren't well-known like stars, actors, actress or character. I just have written it for my own amuse and fun, also in first hand to the person that requested the story and the others in Walking Heaven. For me it is one way to exercise my English and see if I'm good at all to get things together. So this isn't done to try to make any money on it.
Summary: Orlando and Elijah are lovers... secret lovers. Tensions arise as the couple struggle with the effort of hiding their relationship. Elijah wants to come out but Orlando feels differently. It's an issue that just won't go away...
They had secretly been together for a few months. Both knowing for each day that went it would come closer to the day they might get uncovered. They had taken up the issue several times, but wasn’t nearer any agreement to what to do.
Orlando as the elder in the relationship should be the one that get his wishes through, but he couldn’t come with enough to why they shouldn’t tell anyone outside the few that was initiated. So far he always tried to avoid the subject and hope it would take a long time before any outside discovered their relationship.
Elijah for the other hand, was quite tired of hiding that he actually was gay and felt more than ready to come out. Though he wouldn’t dream to jeopardize their relationship, as he felt they really had something special. Knowing that Orlando tried to avoid talking about it, he didn’t take it up as often he wanted.
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They sat and cherished the quiet moment on the porch. It was a beautiful September evening and still warm. An hour ago they had eaten a three course meal, washed down with a fine bottle of wine. When they finished eating they had gone out to the garden hammock, to let it digest and just be close to each other. Later in the week both would go off to respective work.
Elijah was sitting between Orlando’s legs and leaning against his chest. He could feel the arousal of Orlando’s cock. Orlando had put one arm around Elijah and absently drew circles in his hair, with the other.
They hadn’t spoken for a long time, neither wanting to break the atmosphere. Silently, both wished the time could stand still and neither of them soon had to be away on work. The time they could spend together was too rare and precious.
It was Elijah who finally broke the silence and in a husky voice, asked if they would go inside to their bed. Orlando pressed a kiss below Elijah's ear and just replied with an mmm. He loosened his hold of the younger guy and let him stand up, taking the hand Elijah offered.
As they wouldn’t go back outside that night, they locked the door behind them and turned out the lights. Arriving into their bedroom Elijah turned on the lamp at his bedside table, just to have enough light to see what they were about to do.
Tonight they jumped over some of the foreplay. It wasn’t the first time they would be together and they knew well, the feeling of undressing each other involved. They had no problem getting into the right mood. At the same time as Elijah crept down under their cover Orlando picked out the attires he would need.
When Orlando was in bed, they started to kiss and stroke each other. Elijah loved to begin his strokes through Orlando’s curls and then let his fingers drift down his body. He knew that his ministrations were appreciated and never failed to make the receiver shiver, which of course was the case this night as well.
They had come to do this every time, at least almost. Elijah usually started to build up Orlando’s heat before it would be his turn. After all the times they make love to each other they had learned that they were most comfortable when Orlando ‘topped’.
Elijah lingered over one of his nipples and licked it hard. He moved to the other and nipped lightly. Orlando let out a grunt. Elijah smoothed the biting with give the nipple a kiss. Slowly he made his way down his lover’s body.
Reaching down to the waist and Orlando’s cock told him that there were expectations, as it was hard. Though he already knew that, like that his own was also hard. It was an advantage, that they had done this a lot of times, so Elijah knew how long he could continue without Orlando coming to his peak.
When they changed places Elijah said, “I can’t believe how good you feel in my arms, against my body.”
Orlando silenced him with a deep kiss. “Please, no talking.”
To show that he really meant it he let his hands gently traced over Elijahs shoulders, down the chest. He slowly followed where his hands been stroking with kisses. Orlando come down to his cock, licked the length and stopped.
As the minutes went and he didn’t do anything Elijah grew impatient. When more minutes went and he could only feel his lovers breath on it he broke oppresive atmosphere, “Love, why don’t you do anything?”
“Shh, I said no talking. Turn around.” When Elijah obeyed him, Orlando continued to explore his back with gentle hands and soft kisses.
Elijah thought it took an eternity before Orlando let a slick finger trace around his entrance and slowly press inside. Elijah tensed for a few seconds, but in anticipation of what was to come, swiftly relaxed, enjoying the feel of his lover’s fingers inside him.
Orlando prepared his lover long and carefully so as not to hurt him, it was what he did every time. Elijah arched his back the times Orlando’s fingers touched his prostate. When Orlando drew back he tried to follow to not lose the pleasure.
Finally when Orlando thought he had tortured his lover enough, he withdrew his fingers and let his cock press lightly against his opening. He lowered his head to give a few kisses to Elijah’s back and neck. To conceal the intrusion he bit down on one of his shoulders.
Elijah let out a yelp, as he wasn’t prepared for Orlando sinking his teeth into him. As he felt the man let go of his shoulder the sensation of be filled with his lovers cock took over. Though he tried to start slow, they had taken long enough with foreplay and it was not long before Orlando had to quicken up the pace of their lovemaking.
Elijah matched Orlando’s rhythm, moving in time with his lover he tried to deepen every trust to answer with pushing back. The silence in the room was broken with the heavier breath from them and the moaning neither of them could hold in.
Elijah could feel that Orlando was close and he was awarded with the man’s hand closing around his straining erection. Orlando started to stroke it and when he felt that Elijah was ready he let his own last restrain go and shot his load inside him.
Feeling the warmth of his lover’s climax inside him Elijah released his too. Both collapsed onto the bed. Elijah stretched to draw the towel, that they had laying there to him so he could dry himself and get his cum from the sheet. They come to lie side by side to get their breath back.
Both were equally satisfied from the sex, but there was something that seemed to bother them. Elijah had after some time turned on to his side and was now watching Orlando. He reached out and let his fingers trace his lovers body.
Orlando had turned his head and looked at his blue eyed companion, “You’re so beautiful,” the voice bared a hint of the strain the lovemaking had involved. He could see that his words made Elijah blush. Orlando know that he didn’t tell him often enough what he felt, only showed him the times they were alone.
“You are too, and I love you.” Elijah replied. He followed his statement by giving his boyfriend several deep kisses. He hoped to hear some more from him, maybe something of the sort of forbidden subject. Though nothing came.
Elijah was at a point where he was tired of waiting and as they soon would be away from each other he really thought they had to take it up again, the discussion of whether they would come out with their relationship.
“Orlando, don’t you love me?” asked Elijah.
It was clearly shown that Orlando wasn’t prepared for the question, and he closed his eyes to consider his reply.
“Of course I do, but… aren’t you asking for something else?” he said when he was ready.
“That too.” Elijah admitted. “You know me too well. As it is, you know that I’m not fully content with the way we are. You know that there will come a day when we can’t hide anymore.”
“Elijah, we have discussed this several times, and also come to terms that we shall wait. I’m not ready.”
“When will you be ready?” Elijah's frustration was clearly heard and he changed his position.
“I don’t know. You among all people would know what the revelations would do to our careers. I have said it before, I’m not ready to gamble with that yet.” Orlando paused. “You know I haven’t been that long in the film business and I want to be on a little safer ground before we confirm anything.”
“So you would rather take it up the day the tabloids start to harass us because we forgot to sneak with our relationship?”
“You know I would hate that, but so far it has not happened. Please I don’t want to be pushed.”
Orlando rose from the bed. He knew that he could not fall to sleep after this. He hated that he couldn’t give into Elijah’s wish. He went into the bath room in the hope that a shower would release the tension that had come creeping into him.
Elijah stayed in the bed and heard Orlando move away and later how the shower started. He berated himself that he had spoiled the night by taking up the issue again. He had to learn to be patient and wait to see if they would stay together.
The waters sprinkles did ease the tension some. Orlando decided that after the coming filming he had to definitely have an answer for Elijah. He wanted to be sure they had enough to be able to ‘come out’. Deep inside Orlando really thought they had. He did love him. If he hadn’t had Elijah he really didn’t think he would have felt as good as he did now.
Suddenly Orlando felt a pair of arms envelope him and through the sound of the running water, he could hear Elijah whisper, “I’m sorry. Can we have a truce?”
Orlando turned around, kissed the shorter man.
“Yes. It’s I who shall say sorry.”
*~*~*~ The End *~*~*~
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