I'm pissed but i probably shouldn't be ...
I'm pissed! OMG I'm pissed. Over the stupidest things I swear. At Least I admit it! I did nothing for New Years because I could careless.
So New Years Day Sarah her husband Mike, me and Younger Guy went bowling in the afternoon. Younger Guy asked me what I did, I told him nothing. He asked if I at least watched the ball drop. I told him pfft no I didn't care about that. He called me New Years Scrooge. I replied that I probably was. He was way too happy that afternoon and I was like it's just him hungover still from last night. He told us some of the stuff that happened and Sarah was all didn't you text me there was a guy who called himself the situation? Blah blah. He kept blaming me teasingly that I was causing him to not do well sometimes when he bowled and I went "you're doing better than I am. I haven't gotten a strike". He kept putting his feet up on me, threating to sit on me if I didn't move from the middle chair where the controls were, rubbed my head and everything. He also told me that my expressions when I bowled (or afterwards) were funny to watch (something along those lines).
Afterwards I was hungry and like wanna get something to eat then they decided we should go to Waffle House. I've only been once before but didn't really want to go to Waffle House but thought whatever. So we went and that's where I totally felt left out. Certain times they talked about Physics (all three of them are science majors and students. Mike's already graduated with a degree but going back for another different degree. He's older than me around 33. Sarah's still working towards her Bachelor's and I have no idea WTF it is. She's about to be 31. They both look younger than they are and they're shorter than me. I have no idea why I say this but I do. Younger Guy is a Geology major) so I just sat there. I hate science, never appealed to me, I've never gotten it no nothin about science i really get except biology but that was in high school. So again I'm just sitting there.
Then later they move on to Colorado to which Younger Guy had to go there for Field Project for his major during the summer. Sarah and Mike lived there a few years ago. Again I just sat there.
Afterwards I'm like why the hell do these people want to hang out with me? I seriously bring nothing to the table when it comes to them. During the bowling Darius Rucker's country song came up and Younger Guy and Sarah were like this song sucks! Why are they playing it? It was my turn and I wasn't going to say anything but I turned around and said "It's Darius Rucker. And I like him and I love this song" and then bowled. I don't remember if they said anything after what I did. They probably did knowing them, but I have no clue why I said it, maybe I was annoyed because I have to listen to Sarah's music all the time and it's Japanese music and or dance songs. I hate them but I don't say anything because It's not my place.
All this (but mostly the first two things I mentioned) gradually pissed me off since it happened. I had vented to a few friends about it then later today I eventually texted Sarah that I felt left out (i also told her before that i was feeling insecure, she asked why so I proceeded to tell her that too). She said she's sorry that I felt left out but that me going to Europe trumps Colorado and that she feels like that when I talk about Europe (i talk about it but mostly when people are having a conversation about something that reminds me of my time there. I didn't have a convo about it "Oh remember this road or the mountains" blah blah blah and talking about it with two other people) and that she likes it when I talk about it. Then she goes "I'm sorry we just never really talk about it so when Younger Guy talked about it we piped in. W weren't trying to leave you out I'm sorry". But i told her i felt like a 3rd wheel and she said that she feels like that when me and her husband talk about comic books. And I'm like okay it wasn't a long convo and it doesn't last long and it's mostly when you go pee. These things didn't happen all at one sitting.
And during the convo about Physics I said yeah I'm not a science major so this is all above my head. Sigh. I'm still cranky and I probably shouldn't be but I still think they're all nuts for wanting to hang out with me.
On another note here's a video of a little of bowling of said night. Sarah's bowling, the guy voice is Younger Guy and that's me holding and video taping. It's stupid but whatever. You'll get an understanding of..stuff.
So New Years Day Sarah her husband Mike, me and Younger Guy went bowling in the afternoon. Younger Guy asked me what I did, I told him nothing. He asked if I at least watched the ball drop. I told him pfft no I didn't care about that. He called me New Years Scrooge. I replied that I probably was. He was way too happy that afternoon and I was like it's just him hungover still from last night. He told us some of the stuff that happened and Sarah was all didn't you text me there was a guy who called himself the situation? Blah blah. He kept blaming me teasingly that I was causing him to not do well sometimes when he bowled and I went "you're doing better than I am. I haven't gotten a strike". He kept putting his feet up on me, threating to sit on me if I didn't move from the middle chair where the controls were, rubbed my head and everything. He also told me that my expressions when I bowled (or afterwards) were funny to watch (something along those lines).
Afterwards I was hungry and like wanna get something to eat then they decided we should go to Waffle House. I've only been once before but didn't really want to go to Waffle House but thought whatever. So we went and that's where I totally felt left out. Certain times they talked about Physics (all three of them are science majors and students. Mike's already graduated with a degree but going back for another different degree. He's older than me around 33. Sarah's still working towards her Bachelor's and I have no idea WTF it is. She's about to be 31. They both look younger than they are and they're shorter than me. I have no idea why I say this but I do. Younger Guy is a Geology major) so I just sat there. I hate science, never appealed to me, I've never gotten it no nothin about science i really get except biology but that was in high school. So again I'm just sitting there.
Then later they move on to Colorado to which Younger Guy had to go there for Field Project for his major during the summer. Sarah and Mike lived there a few years ago. Again I just sat there.
Afterwards I'm like why the hell do these people want to hang out with me? I seriously bring nothing to the table when it comes to them. During the bowling Darius Rucker's country song came up and Younger Guy and Sarah were like this song sucks! Why are they playing it? It was my turn and I wasn't going to say anything but I turned around and said "It's Darius Rucker. And I like him and I love this song" and then bowled. I don't remember if they said anything after what I did. They probably did knowing them, but I have no clue why I said it, maybe I was annoyed because I have to listen to Sarah's music all the time and it's Japanese music and or dance songs. I hate them but I don't say anything because It's not my place.
All this (but mostly the first two things I mentioned) gradually pissed me off since it happened. I had vented to a few friends about it then later today I eventually texted Sarah that I felt left out (i also told her before that i was feeling insecure, she asked why so I proceeded to tell her that too). She said she's sorry that I felt left out but that me going to Europe trumps Colorado and that she feels like that when I talk about Europe (i talk about it but mostly when people are having a conversation about something that reminds me of my time there. I didn't have a convo about it "Oh remember this road or the mountains" blah blah blah and talking about it with two other people) and that she likes it when I talk about it. Then she goes "I'm sorry we just never really talk about it so when Younger Guy talked about it we piped in. W weren't trying to leave you out I'm sorry". But i told her i felt like a 3rd wheel and she said that she feels like that when me and her husband talk about comic books. And I'm like okay it wasn't a long convo and it doesn't last long and it's mostly when you go pee. These things didn't happen all at one sitting.
And during the convo about Physics I said yeah I'm not a science major so this is all above my head. Sigh. I'm still cranky and I probably shouldn't be but I still think they're all nuts for wanting to hang out with me.
On another note here's a video of a little of bowling of said night. Sarah's bowling, the guy voice is Younger Guy and that's me holding and video taping. It's stupid but whatever. You'll get an understanding of..stuff.
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