This isn't what you ordered,
tigriswolf-dear, but hopefully it's not a complete horror. :)
Title: Echoes
Fandom: Supernatural
Disclaimer: None you know are belong to us.
Warnings: references to non-con sex
Characters/Pairings: Sam/ Dean
Rating: PG-13?
Summary/Notes: AU ficlet for 2x14, based on
tigriswolf's
idea.
The prompt: A "Born Under A Bad Sign" AU wherein NotMegSam rapes Dean, but locks Sam so deep inside himself that he doesn't know about it. NotMegSam also tells Dean that Sam won't have a clue, but he'll have to live with it, forever, and that he'll never tell Sam because he doesn't want to burden Sam with such a heavy load.
If Sam or Bobby notice how stiffly, carefully he sits, moves, they don't mention it.
Neither of them knows, after all.
"-laden poor Sammy with this on top of everything else..."
He jokes about (that bitch) taking up lodgings in Sam, and some of his plan to lighten the mood works. Would work a hell of a lot better if he could forget Sam's weight and voice. Tongue and touch.
"Oh, he's here. He's just...sleeping."
His shoulder still burns, and he concentrates on that pain, lets it override the other, lower and wrong, wedging in deeper, trying to split him still in two, even if it's been over for hours already.
"Feel this?"
It wasn't Sam. It wasn't Sam with the gun, knocking him out cold, pinning him, breathing down his neck. And since Sam doesn't mention any of it, since Dean doesn't catch shadows as fucked up as his own memories in those hazel eyes, he can only hope that what 'Meg' said is true. That Sam was away as long as it lasted, that he won't remember any of it, ever.
It's enough that one of them has to bear a stigma like this. And if it had to happen, he's glad that it was him instead of Sam.
"Cry wolf, Dean... you know they'll never believe you. As if you'd really-"
Once more, he curses the little bitch for knowing him so well. But then, like father like daughter, right?
He shivers, and it's not just the cool breeze, it's not just the blood lost and the pain familiar enough for the sharpest edge to have dulled.
If he flinches when Sam reaches for him days (weeks) after... Well, it can't certainly be because a bitch decided to take Sam's body for a joyride when Dean's vigilance faltered, or because she went and crawled under Dean's skin the hard way, too.
Right?