im lonely, im pissed, and im crawling out of my skin. i just got out of bed 20 minutes ago (4:45) and am thoroughly depressed. no one answers when i call them, so it looks like any plans im going to make are going to be by myself.

homecoming
pictures soon

im pissed off more than im happy
and i have plenty of people to blame for it

the following is why today sucked more than any day. ever.

o Didn't make top 20 in Culture Shapers

o Got in a wreck on my way to Cy-Fair College

o Had to run home 5 minutes from Cy Fair college to get my paper because im stupid and forgot it

o Lost my Shreck Chart and got a 0 for a seemingly easy assignment, which i completed

o Couldn't find ( Read more... )

i dont hate you
i hate not knowing you

so today ive learned that confidence doesn't work. top 20 for culture shapers was posted today, and the fact that i didn't make it doesnt bother me as much as the fact that i was so confident i'd make top 10. now i feel like an idiot. i guess it just wasn't what they were looking for. don't get me wrong, i think my piece was well done. just ( Read more... )

Halloween = tonight, and suprisingly tonight i have plans. The last two years have been spent with Lacie and Megan, but sadly tonight will not be the case because they're both at a lacrosse tournament. sigh, so tonight will be spent with Lauren and Lauren Best, whom i havent seen in 3 years i think. Others will be there, but i dont know them. I ( Read more... )

im
going
to
fucking
SCREAM

i just gave birth to my first professional portfolio. only problem is i dont have the proper folder thing to put it in. i think ill have to settle with a 1" binder. pieces included in the portfolio can be found here: http://saddisplay.deviantart.com/ , and include the following ( Read more... )

after fighting last night i cooled down and figured today would be better. it wasn't better, it was just hurtful and made me mad. the only cool thing that happened today was talking to ms mcwilliams and this sophmore english teacher about stuff durring lunch. the intent was to stay in class to finish my economics, but i barely got any done. it ( Read more... )