I noticed something. People desert you when you need them the most, including those who are "closest" to you. Someone up there trying to tell me something? I guess I need to be more independant. I can only rely on myself, and hell, that isnt very comforting either. A chill is originating at the core of my being. Now, the sickness is taking me ( Read more... )

How many times have i got to say it? If you dont give a shit about someone, then dont fucking pretend like you do!

Another thing about that movie, he had a vision that he was attacked by a dog. This is something I have never understood. People run from dogs. I wouldnt. I would fight. I guess it takes a beast to attack another beast though. Oh, here is some advice for anyone who gives a shit enough to read this. One, dont need people. If you need them ( Read more... )

I am still alive. But for how long, that is the real riddle. Dont ask. You know, I find that whenever I need someone, no one is ever there. When I need help, i do not receive it. I am getting fucking sick of this shit. Oh, and if anyone saw Riding the Bullet last night, it was almost like looking into my own fucking life. Imagining what you ( Read more... )

“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me ( Read more... )

I’m not sober all the time ( Read more... )

Christmas comes early this year. Mine is tomorrow. Or should I say, tonight at midnight, God willing. I may disappear for a long time. And speaking of Christmas, I am probably moving after the holidays. Leave all of this hell far behind me...

I walk a lonely road ( Read more... )

So, Halloween has come and gone and this year and I must say it was my most uneventful. I did no more than dress up for work. I guess it would have been different if I actually could have slept last night. I need to vent. I have fucking had it with people claiming they care and then turning their backs, I really have. I am fed up and realizing ( Read more... )

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