You sound kinda like me. Or maybe I sound kinda like you. Or something. *hug*
Never mind me, my throat's killing me and I just took the heavy-duty stuff since nothing else has worked...
I've got way too much insecurity in regards to making/keeping friends thanks to a few dipshits I had the misfortune of knowing and trusting. (Three in one batch - I was their fourth, or so they led me to believe until they got tired of me after 3 years, and one that came after that was so special to me I thought I'd die without her, but I don't really care anymore.) I really wish I could just forget about it, but...it's a part of me now. It really does affect how I go about talking to people, and how much I let down my walls.
I am okay, really. Or maybe I'm just our definition of "fine", but that's normal.
Anyway, I'm up late and venting all this craziness into a story of sorts that's been shaping in my head for a couple weeks. The first part does expand on a few of the thoughts in this post, but it goes on (or will) into something a little... different. Hopefully a little more fun.
Also I want to play with you more. Song has plans that will involve choosing one other person, and you're on the top of her list. She just needs to test you.
Yay for venting! I need to do that and get my friggin' Gundam Wing fic done. So close...and yet so far. One chapter and the epilogue left (Out of seven total), and I've been working on it since 2002. *thunk* I wish you better luck.
That'll be fun. I've been offline a lot the last few evenings since I've been feeling kinda sick, but it seems to be getting a little better. Dare I ask what kind of plans? Also, will it require drugging Jalen and shoving him in a closet so he doesn't protest her involvement? >_>;
I hate writing, honestly. I love telling stories... but writing seems to take longer than it should, you know? Unless you rush it, and then it just sucks. We need some kind of devise that can draw the ideas straight from our minds and instantly transcribe them.
You'll find out soon enough. And I don't think it will worry Jalen too much. If you agree, he can even help you practice.
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Never mind me, my throat's killing me and I just took the heavy-duty stuff since nothing else has worked...
I've got way too much insecurity in regards to making/keeping friends thanks to a few dipshits I had the misfortune of knowing and trusting. (Three in one batch - I was their fourth, or so they led me to believe until they got tired of me after 3 years, and one that came after that was so special to me I thought I'd die without her, but I don't really care anymore.) I really wish I could just forget about it, but...it's a part of me now. It really does affect how I go about talking to people, and how much I let down my walls.
Have some more hugs. <3
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I am okay, really. Or maybe I'm just our definition of "fine", but that's normal.
Anyway, I'm up late and venting all this craziness into a story of sorts that's been shaping in my head for a couple weeks. The first part does expand on a few of the thoughts in this post, but it goes on (or will) into something a little... different. Hopefully a little more fun.
Also I want to play with you more. Song has plans that will involve choosing one other person, and you're on the top of her list. She just needs to test you.
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That'll be fun. I've been offline a lot the last few evenings since I've been feeling kinda sick, but it seems to be getting a little better. Dare I ask what kind of plans? Also, will it require drugging Jalen and shoving him in a closet so he doesn't protest her involvement? >_>;
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We need some kind of devise that can draw the ideas straight from our minds and instantly transcribe them.
You'll find out soon enough. And I don't think it will worry Jalen too much. If you agree, he can even help you practice.
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