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x mike didnt come to the gig
x i was being a worry ass at lunch
x im being a worry ass cos he's not texting back
x more work = more work to NOT do
x the knowledge that i will never get to have rampant sex with mr wood in the toilet cupboard

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x the singer in that support band. fuckx mark trafford minus shirt ( Read more... )

&then i ate a whole tin of sainsburys fruit cocktail. it was way too much man, i feel so syruppy i dont think i'll be able to stand.

lewis <3 sabrina. &vice versa

woohoo

♥

ps. im not being bitter im actually happy, they are both very nice people. lewis just happens to be rather fit. i dont care though, i have my own *pouts*

so mike and i had the phone conversation ive wanted for ages. we finally had it, i told him exactly how i felt about us as a whole, and i got the response i wanted, or as much of it as i expected anyway. he told me to stop worrying, and that i had no reason to. ive thought this for ages, but hearing it from him really made it hit home. we talked ( Read more... )

i went to the doctor this morning about my depression/emotional problems/eating problems..etc ( Read more... )

my mum made me eat a bag of crisps. she sat in the room until i finished, it was disgusting i feel so sick now.

i went for a long walk in the rain and cleared my head to an extent.

i realised:
mike is my boyfriend
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im mikes girlfriendwe dont need to speak everyday, its nice but we dont need to. im sure he thinks of me and i know he cares about ( Read more... )

i scare myself with the fact that i think this, because its barely been a month; i think i maybe falling in love with him.

yesterday was perfect and dreadful, and i miss him a lot. yesterday is also a very long ( story )

so we went to see the butterfly effect tonight. it was amazing, one of the best films i have ever seen. it even made me cry a bit, ok if i'd been watching it alone i would have cried a lot ( Read more... )

yesterday was awful, ive never been so depressed and i have no idea why. i called up one of those counseller helplines, and the guy i spoke to was really good. he made me realise what i had to do to be happy, and he made me see that i'm not bein irrational, and i have a reason to be so paranoied. relationships are two way things people have to ( Read more... )

You bet your bollocks 2 a barn dance u aint backin out! says:
and u aint gonna lose him again u sausage, u kno he likes u, and he dont have 2 show it cuz, u know wot he is...he's a blokie

i dont really like the kid, and i hate that he types like that. but thanks rob.
that mean something,

other people i wish to thank are: suzan and kate <3

there is a horrible pop corn smell in my house. i might throw up ( Read more... )