when I really come around
Author: Nathalia
Rating: PG
Challenge: Apfelstrudel #11 - kitsch
Extras / Toppings: hot fudge, malt (Miimei’s birthday gift: You have your legs, so how about getting up and using them?), peaches (Tonight's revelation could be that one person is more involved than the other, at least for the time being.), pineapple (Martha Wainwright - Bloody Motherfucking Asshole)
Word Count: 291
Story: Misfits
Summary: Lucas proposes to Mara.
Notes: a quick one because peaches and pineapple were so perfect for the prompt. The song is the perfect Mara song. Mara perceives the entire situation to be too kitschy for her and just wrong.
Mara couldn’t recall a moment when she felt more put on the spot in her entire life. She had been through a lot in her life but she had never felt so exposed, so naked than right now, standing in front of this man who was telling her that he loved her and wanted to be with her forever. He was on his knees, waiting for her answer and she knew that she couldn’t give him one.
She wanted to be honest. She had promised herself that she would be honest in every aspect when it came to Lucas so that she wouldn’t regret anything she did afterwards. But how far could honesty go when there was a man proposing to her?
This couldn’t be real; which part of “I have commitment issues” hadn’t he understood? Didn’t he understand that she was not nearly ready to get married? She wasn’t the youngest woman in the world but that didn’t mean that she was ready yet.
She wanted Lucas, she enjoyed her time with him, he gave her something she had not known from other men but he seemed to always get the impression that she was waiting around for something better and that he had to do things as fast as possible because eventually, she would leave. He didn’t seem to be able to grasp that she only ever left because he was going too fast and she couldn’t keep up. She wasn’t emotional like him, she needed time, she needed things to make sense to her and a marriage didn’t make sense to her right now.
Her instincts were telling her to run away from this scene in the restaurant.
She wasn’t ready for this.
It was time to run.