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[rufflesrenegade]

Half the time I feel like blowing my brains out and the other half I'm totally happy. I can't decide what I want to do and I can't keep a consistent thought for more than 5 minutes. I couldn't be more unprepared for any of this. I get home from vacation - I'm experiencing a total high and I get slapped in the face. Yeah - ok, maybe I made a bigger

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[mys0calledllfe]

anything new happen?? how r u doing with things?? what r u doing tonight?

[rufflesrenegade]

i spoke with my sister, who has always hated him, and kinda told her what happened.. yeah she said i was an idiot. my sister is very liberal when it comes to sex, so i didn't take it all to heart. but i dunno, we spoke and hung out a little.. and it seems like it could work out. but he already got all of his stuff and moved to his mom's house and is paying rent there.. so it would be kinda of hassle for him to get all of his stuff again and move back, and he doesn't want to live at my aunts house cause he's afraid they will judge him - but i don't want to live seperately because then i'll NEVER know what he's doing you know? ugh. i'm still stuck, and half the time i'll be like "ok i forgive you" and the other half i want to push him off a cliff. once i make up my mind, i change it 2 seconds later! we had an amazing conversation yesterday and hung out late last night, i just don't know at this very moment.

[mys0calledllfe]

yeah seems so confusing.. i know what u mean by changing ur mind every two seconds... its so frusterating... well come over if youre bored! Im just hanging at the house

[rufflesrenegade]

aiiight! i'm going to BOOMERS tonight haha with some friends i haven't seen in forever. but i'll call you, if i can! i really need to get the phone too cause mine is sooo ready for it's grave!