LJ Idol 10: Week 5: Fear is the heart of love

[rswndrlst]

[Triggers and Warnings]TW: Self Harm, Suicide, Childhood trauma, Panic Attacks and Anxiety, If you gave birth to the author you should definitely not read this, you have been warned

Comments

[lostin_thestars]

This was so well written. I was holding my breath as I read.

[rswndrlst]

thank you for reading! This was a hard one to put out there, I almost didn't post it but I'm glad I did.

LJI fav reads list, week 5

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[rayaso]

This was so open and raw!

[rswndrlst]

I blame Gary...and Death Cab For Cutie, thank you for reading

[halfshellvenus]

This was really well-written, and such a vivid series of snapshots of wrongs and pain and fear and the fallout that continues years afterward.

You’re too busy trying to survive
without hurting anyone
And that is the theme clear to the end, where you are sorry she is dying, truly sorry, but you don't reach out because you have finally learned to protect yourself first.

[rswndrlst]

wow I didn't even make that connection because yes, I really DON'T want to hurt anyone, even her, despite everything

(full disclosure: I've heard she is in remission)

[j0ydivided]

Oh man, that last line. This is wonderfully done.

[rswndrlst]

Thank you!