Too Much For Words - Chapter 4 [Final]
Title: Too Much For Words
Rating: K+
Genre: Romance/Melodrama
Pairings: Rainie Yang / Leeteuk
Length: 4 Chapters [Completed]
Disclaimer: Sadly enough, I own none of the celebrities used in this fanfiction. They belong to themselves, or their management companies... whatever. This fanfic, in no way, represents the celebrities in real life. It's all in my head. The plot belongs to me and me only.
Summary: Who would have known that the reason behind her departure was the very reason she should have stayed? But not all was lost. After she left the ones she loved - including the boy who saw her only as a sister - to catch some air, she met someone important and, years later, returned to her old life renewed. As expected, she wasn't the only one who had changed... Now, her past and her present lives collide in the most unexpected ways.
“It would have been nice if she gave me a warning,” Leeteuk sighed, “Now I just feel like a complete idiot and jerk.”
Geunseok scooted to the edge of his chair, “What? Why?”
“For giving you such a hard time,” Leeteuk laughed nervously, scratching the back of his head, “Sorry, I don’t really know how to be a big brother... to a little brother, at least.”
Geunseok smiled, “Of course, you’ve only had sisters.”
“Yeah, Rainie and Leila have trained me well in being an older brother. I’m good with the girls,” Leeteuk grinned.
Geunseok shook his head, “Not good enough.”
“What do you mean?” The older of the two asked.
“From what I can tell, you haven’t handled things with noona very well,” the boy replied, “Left behind some pretty bad impressions.”
Leeteuk’s eyes widened, “She... she has bad impressions of me?”
“Just a bit,” Geunseok shrugged, “Well, maybe more than just a bit, but instead of bad impressions, maybe we should call them bad memories? I did say she ran away from her feelings, she wouldn’t have tried to escape if she was happy.”
Leeteuk watched as Geunseok’s forehead met the surface of the table, his eyes slowly shifting to the owner of the small hand that had shoved Geunseok’s head. “Don’t twist the truth,” Rainie scolded, Leila laughing behind her.
“Finished shopping already?” Leeteuk asked, his jaw dropped in surprise.
Geunseok rubbed his forehead, frowning at Rainie, “Noona! That hurt!”
“That’s the point,” Rainie huffed, taking a seat at the table, “Who told you to twist the truth.”
“I didn’t!” Geunseok defended himself, “I was just trying to help-”
“He really didn’t say anything bad,” Leeteuk added.
Rainie lifted an eyebrow at the two, “Already on his side, I see.”
“That’s not what I-”
“Save it,” Rainie shrugged, “It’s none of my business, anyways.”
“What do you mean none of your business?” Leeteuk asked, “You’re the one who brought this kid here.”
Rainie shook her head, “He brought himself here, I just tagged along.”
“Sure,” Leeteuk rolled his eyes.
Leila stepped in, confused by all the foreign language that was being spoken, and dragged Geunseok out of his seat. “I’ll be taking this fellow with me,” She said in a sing song voice, “I’ll be needing assistance with all these bags.”
“We’ll come with you,” Leeteuk said, standing from his seat.
Rainie took him by the wrist and pushed him back into his chair, “No, we’re staying.”
“But they can’t communicate,” Leeteuk said, his eyes widened in surprise.
Leila waved him off, “We’ll be fine.” At that, she handed Geunseok some shopping bags and dragged him out of the cafe, leaving Rainie and Leeteuk sitting awkwardly in their seats.
“Do you have something to tell me?” Leeteuk asked.
Rainie nodded. “First of all, I need to clear up what Geunseok almost butchered. All my memories with you were happy memories.”
“I’m glad-”
“Don’t interrupt,” Rainie cut in, “Second, I need to tell you the reason why I left so abruptly. Well, it wasn’t abrupt since there was a little over half a year before I left, but it was a very out of the blue decision.”
Leeteuk nodded, “I understand.”
“The reason I left... I left because...,” Rainie tried to explain with much hardship, “Because I was fed up with you.”
“With me?” Leeteuk asked, “I thought-”
Rainie shook her head, “Well, you thought wrong.”
Leeteuk laughed and crossed his arms over his torso, deciding that although he would never get his message to her across, it was best to just let her talk.
“I was fed up with you treating me so well, so much like a sister,” Rainie counted. “I was fed up with how you always took such good care of me, worried about me, watched over and protected me. I was fed up with how sweet you were, how you always shined and smiled at me brightly. I was fed up with how you always stuck to me like glue, how you never left my side no matter if I was happy or blue. I was fed up with how you never argued with me, never got angry with me even when I was being a brat.”
Leeteuk tilted his head and stared at her pinking cheeks. “But you were never a brat,” he smiled.
“I was,” Rainie insisted, “Always. All the time I would be bullying you, I would be mean to you on purpose, because I wanted you to get mad at me, even if it was just once.”
Leeteuk laughed, “How could I ever get mad at you? You were so cute.”
“That! I was fed up with things like that, too! I was tired of how you would always sweet talk to me, listen to me rant, always have such an open mind and warm heart,” Rainie groaned. “Everything, every single thing about you just annoyed me so much.”
Leeteuk’s smile slowly advanced to a grin. Never had he been praised by Rainie like this before. “You didn’t like it?” He asked.
“I did,” Rainie replied, exasperated, twiddling her fingers nervously, “And that’s the problem. I liked all of it, I liked it all too much, so much that the feelings just wouldn’t stop growing. My feelings for you, did you ever notice them?”
“I-” Leeteuk was about to reply when she interrupted again, not wanting to give him a chance to answer.
Rainie weaved her fingers together and lifted her eyes to meet him, surprising him with such a sudden lock of eyes. “I would always wonder things like that. I always wondered if my feelings were too obvious, if you would find out about my longing, my yearning, for you. Would you hate it? I would ask myself. Would you wish it never happened? Or would you accept them and tell me you felt the same?”
Leeteuk leaned back against the chair, “And?”
“And then I decided I didn’t want to know after all,” Rainie laughed, finally relaxing after knowing that Leeteuk wasn’t reacting repulsively to her words. “So I decided to leave and give both of us some space. I was so young at that time after all, maybe I was just confused.”
Leeteuk nodded, “Were you? Were you just confused about the feelings you had for me?”
“No,” She shook her head, “I wasn’t.”
“Did anything change, then? Have your feelings for me faded? Died? Disappeared?” Leeteuk asked.
Rainie hesitated for a moment, her fists tightening until her knuckles whitened. Eventually she managed to force out a smile, peering straight into the older mans eyes. “No, not in the least,” she replied.
“Good,” Leeteuk smirked, “That’s what I wanted to hear.”
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Mrs. Yang prepared breakfast in the kitchen like she used to, something she hadn’t done ever since the kids entered high school and managed to feed themselves. Rainie stood under the frame of the door leading to the kitchen, watching her mother’s back as the memories rushed into her mind.
*Flashback*
Little Joanne visited the Yang’s early in the morning, accompanying her parents as they delivered fresh news about the return of the industrial economy which would benefit both of their companies in the most fashionable terms.
“Bye girls,” Joanne waved before turning to the foreigner, “Bye Teukie-Teuk!”
Leeteuk smiled happiest when others called him by that nickname. He rushed over to Joanne and gave her a quick hug before showing her out the door.
“Can I call him Teukie, too, Mother?” The young Rainie asked, tugging on the ends of her mothers apron. Mrs. Yang shifted her eyes to the little girl with a small frown and shook her head.
“But why not?” the young Rainie would whine to her mother, pulling on the rims of her beautifully laced gown, “Everyone else does!”
Rainie’s mother would slant a look at the little girl, a small scowl on her smooth cheeks, “He’s older than you, sweet heart, you have to respect him.”
*Flashback End*
“What are you doing over there?” Mrs. Yang asked, snapping Rainie back to reality.
Rainie shook her head, “Just remembering.”
“About what?” Her mother probed again.
Rainie focused her gaze on her mothers whitening hair, her wrinkling skin, her stiff movements, and realized time had passed a lot quicker than she could have ever imagine. “How you never allowed me to call Oppa by his nickname,” Rainie replied with a forced smile.
“You still think about that? Did it bother you that much how I didn’t let you call him Teukie?” Mrs. Yang laughed, her voice cracking amidst the laughs. Rainie felt a pain stab her chest.
“Yes, it did,” Rainie sighed, “But it’s okay now.”
Mrs. Yang nodded, “I’m glad.”
“What are you two beautiful ladies talking about so early in the morning?” A voice asked. An arm slung around Rainie’s shoulder and, immediately, she recognized the warmth emitted from figure slouching against her.
Mrs. Yang shook her head with a chuckle, “The past.”
Rainie nodded, feeling Leeteuk slowly lower his arms around her waist. His fingers laced together as he rested his chin on her shoulder, hugging her from behind. Rainie cocked her head so that it was resting against Leeteuk’s side profile.
“What’s there to talk about of the past?” Leeteuk inquired, his head tilted as he pursed his lips. Mrs. Yang’s eyes widened in surprise when her poor eye sight finally focused on the pair standing by the door.
Slowly, a smile crept onto her lips when her eyes landed on a pack of triplets standing behind them, jaws dropped dramatically. Joanne shook Leila by the shoulders and Geunseok just stood in astonishment. Mrs. Yang turned away with a grin and continued her breakfast making.
Rainie flicked him on the forehead, garnering a soft hiss from the older man. “Too much,” Rainie laughed, “Too much for words.”