Bonus Fic: Persistence
Title: Persistence
Author: theatresweety
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: None
Word Count: 1392 (I know, it's a little over the 1,000 word limit, but the boys just wouldn't shut up.)
Summary: Remus reflects on his school days and realizes just how persistent Sirius could be.
Author's Note: charcharberry's prompt "Sirius chasing after Remus for years and Remus rejecting him instead of James chasing Lily."
Also, many thanks to fewthingschange for looking this over for me. Love and kisses!
Long, thin fingers turned the crisp yellowed pages of a journal. Wise blue eyes scanned the old pages and the familiar words written on them. A slight smile turned up the mans lips as the entries brought back old memories. Some sad but most very fond, things he hadn't thought of in years.
He'd kept journals all through his Hogwarts years but most of them weren't that interesting. Not, at least, until 5th year when he realized Sirius was shamelessly flirting with him. Before that it had been a lot of childish ramblings and remarks about his grades or getting lost for the hundredth time on his way to potions.
October 31st, 1975
Tonight I'm more than a little confused. I think Sirius Black was flirting with me.
I got to our shared dorm after the welcome feast to realize Sirius had beat me upstairs and thought that strange. He usually stayed down in the common room with James, sweet-talking the ladies whilst Peter watched. I shrugged it off, however, and went to unpack a few of my things and get my bedclothes together.
He came over to me as I unpacked and told me that he thought my new scar (the one that now adorns my once unmarred face) was sexy. Now, normally a comment like that wouldn't have seemed so out of place coming from him but it was the way he said it that has me concerned.
I think he wants in my trousers. Merlin, that's terrifying.
“Moony, what are you doing?” Sirius asked his lover, making his way up behind the other man, draping his arms over his shoulders.
“I had forgotten how persistent you were...” Remus said fondly, turning his head to look up at the other man with a grin.
“I believe you used to say 'stubborn'...” He smirked.
“Only because you wouldn't take 'no' for an answer. Ever.” Remus laughed softly.
“You gave in didn't you? Eventually.”
“Yes, eventually...” He agreed with a slight nod, picking up a new journal to continue reading.
January 13th, 1977
Sirius threw a snowball at my head today. He's quite a good shot. If that's his way of flirting it's a wonder he ever bedded anyone. Perhaps it's just because I'm a bloke. Merlin only knows.
I've decided to accept his flirting. There's nothing I can do about it, but that doesn't mean I have to return the gestures or even acknowledge it.
Really, why would Sirius Black be interested in me? It boggles the mind. Part of me thinks it's just to prove he can win me over. To make me one of his conquests. Just another notch in his bedpost. Yet, there's this small portion of me that says he's genuine and I should stop being so stubborn and give him a chance.
People change, right? The only question is, does that apply to Sirius Black?
“Is that what you really thought?” Sirius asked his long-time lover, moving around the sofa to settle in beside him. “Did you really think I only wanted you as another notch on my bedpost?”
“I wasn't sure what to think Sirius. I'd never seen you with a bloke and you'd been with so many birds...”
“It was never like that, Remus.” He said genuinely, grey eyes holding a little of their former twinkle as he met and held the other mans blue gaze.
“I know that now...” Remus leaned in then, pressing his lips gently to Sirius'.
April 22nd, 1977
I swear to Merlin he is the most stubborn man alive! How many times must I tell him no before it sinks into that thick skull of his? I won't date him, I don't want a kiss or a cuddle or a date to Hogsmeade. Merlin's beard!
It isn't that he's unattractive, very much the opposite, but his reputation makes me more than a little wary. I don't want to end up with my heart in pieces because I let him have it. If he wants this Lupin he's going to have to do quite a bit of changing and I just don't think he's up for that.
“Are all your journal entries about me?” Sirius asked curiously, a teasing tone in his voice.
“No, Padfoot, just the ones I'm reading you.” Remus laughed a little, skimming the pages of his journal as he flipped them.
“Oh, right...”
“Just as self-centered as always.” He teased the animagus lightly, running a finger over the date on one entry almost reverently.
“What's that one?”
“Our first kiss...”
June 19th, 1978
Today is my last day at Hogwarts as a student. Tomorrow the train will take us back to London and I'll be locked away, enduring the transformation of the full moon.
I have a hard time thinking about tomorrow when today was so good. Three years ago if you'd have told me I'd snog Sirius Black in the astronomy tower on my last day of school I'd have told you you were mad. It's amazing how much changes in three years.
I kissed Sirius Black. No, I snogged him. Merlin, that's so strange to admit, even in writing. What's even stranger is that I enjoyed it. Oh, God did I enjoy it.
Kissing Sirius was nothing like kissing a girl. Sure it was gentle at first, almost sweet but he tastes different and girls don't have stubble that scratches your chin. It didn't take very long to get a bit more heated though and that was certainly a difference to snogging a bird. It was all forceful lips and grazing teeth and a fight for dominance and it was brilliant.
Having kissed him I suppose I have to admit that I've finally given in. He broke me, wore me down and I folded but if I'd have known it could be like this I would have given in a long time ago.
“I remember that.” Sirius smirked, “I asked you to meet me in the astronomy tower so we could look out over the grounds and castle one last time.”
“And then you threw yourself at me.” Remus grinned. He loved teasing Sirius, especially when it came to their reminiscing.
“Oi, I don't remember you ever complaining about it. In fact, I seem to remember you groaning shamelessly and pressing me rather roughly into the stone wall.”
“It was the night before the full moon...” Remus insisted.
“Excuses.” Sirius shook his head with a grin.
“Perhaps so,” He agreed.
“But I wouldn't change a thing about that night.” The animagus told him leaning in to gently press his lips to the other mans.
“Nor would I.”
Maybe life wasn't always perfect, and maybe Sirius had really had to work for what he'd wanted but in the end it had all been worth it. After so much misery and heartache Remus thought that it was about time they got to enjoy themselves and finally just be the lovers they'd wanted to be. Sure, Sirius had changed but so had he. It had been 12 years. 12 hard years but now they could finally live their lives.
Together.
September 29th, 1995
One final journal entry. I'm older now, more grey and hopefully wiser. So many things change in twelve years. I look in the mirror some days and wonder where the time has gone. I look at Sirius and think of all the time together that we lost. It saddens me to think of what could have been and what never was but I mustn't dwell on such things.
I have Sirius back now. After twelve years apart I finally have him again and when I look into those familiar grey eyes I can forget for a time all the bad that's happened and feel young again. Lost in his gaze, in his arms I can be 18 and carefree once more and that's a feeling I wouldn't trade for anything.
I may not know what tomorrow holds. I may not know how long we'll be granted on this Earth, but I do know that I want each and every day left to be spent together. Nothing ever seems quite so bad with him around and I think that perhaps even death, whenever it comes, will be all right so long as I have him by my side.
Remus J. Lupin
Author: theatresweety
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: None
Word Count: 1392 (I know, it's a little over the 1,000 word limit, but the boys just wouldn't shut up.)
Summary: Remus reflects on his school days and realizes just how persistent Sirius could be.
Author's Note: charcharberry's prompt "Sirius chasing after Remus for years and Remus rejecting him instead of James chasing Lily."
Also, many thanks to fewthingschange for looking this over for me. Love and kisses!
Long, thin fingers turned the crisp yellowed pages of a journal. Wise blue eyes scanned the old pages and the familiar words written on them. A slight smile turned up the mans lips as the entries brought back old memories. Some sad but most very fond, things he hadn't thought of in years.
He'd kept journals all through his Hogwarts years but most of them weren't that interesting. Not, at least, until 5th year when he realized Sirius was shamelessly flirting with him. Before that it had been a lot of childish ramblings and remarks about his grades or getting lost for the hundredth time on his way to potions.
October 31st, 1975
Tonight I'm more than a little confused. I think Sirius Black was flirting with me.
I got to our shared dorm after the welcome feast to realize Sirius had beat me upstairs and thought that strange. He usually stayed down in the common room with James, sweet-talking the ladies whilst Peter watched. I shrugged it off, however, and went to unpack a few of my things and get my bedclothes together.
He came over to me as I unpacked and told me that he thought my new scar (the one that now adorns my once unmarred face) was sexy. Now, normally a comment like that wouldn't have seemed so out of place coming from him but it was the way he said it that has me concerned.
I think he wants in my trousers. Merlin, that's terrifying.
“Moony, what are you doing?” Sirius asked his lover, making his way up behind the other man, draping his arms over his shoulders.
“I had forgotten how persistent you were...” Remus said fondly, turning his head to look up at the other man with a grin.
“I believe you used to say 'stubborn'...” He smirked.
“Only because you wouldn't take 'no' for an answer. Ever.” Remus laughed softly.
“You gave in didn't you? Eventually.”
“Yes, eventually...” He agreed with a slight nod, picking up a new journal to continue reading.
January 13th, 1977
Sirius threw a snowball at my head today. He's quite a good shot. If that's his way of flirting it's a wonder he ever bedded anyone. Perhaps it's just because I'm a bloke. Merlin only knows.
I've decided to accept his flirting. There's nothing I can do about it, but that doesn't mean I have to return the gestures or even acknowledge it.
Really, why would Sirius Black be interested in me? It boggles the mind. Part of me thinks it's just to prove he can win me over. To make me one of his conquests. Just another notch in his bedpost. Yet, there's this small portion of me that says he's genuine and I should stop being so stubborn and give him a chance.
People change, right? The only question is, does that apply to Sirius Black?
“Is that what you really thought?” Sirius asked his long-time lover, moving around the sofa to settle in beside him. “Did you really think I only wanted you as another notch on my bedpost?”
“I wasn't sure what to think Sirius. I'd never seen you with a bloke and you'd been with so many birds...”
“It was never like that, Remus.” He said genuinely, grey eyes holding a little of their former twinkle as he met and held the other mans blue gaze.
“I know that now...” Remus leaned in then, pressing his lips gently to Sirius'.
April 22nd, 1977
I swear to Merlin he is the most stubborn man alive! How many times must I tell him no before it sinks into that thick skull of his? I won't date him, I don't want a kiss or a cuddle or a date to Hogsmeade. Merlin's beard!
It isn't that he's unattractive, very much the opposite, but his reputation makes me more than a little wary. I don't want to end up with my heart in pieces because I let him have it. If he wants this Lupin he's going to have to do quite a bit of changing and I just don't think he's up for that.
“Are all your journal entries about me?” Sirius asked curiously, a teasing tone in his voice.
“No, Padfoot, just the ones I'm reading you.” Remus laughed a little, skimming the pages of his journal as he flipped them.
“Oh, right...”
“Just as self-centered as always.” He teased the animagus lightly, running a finger over the date on one entry almost reverently.
“What's that one?”
“Our first kiss...”
June 19th, 1978
Today is my last day at Hogwarts as a student. Tomorrow the train will take us back to London and I'll be locked away, enduring the transformation of the full moon.
I have a hard time thinking about tomorrow when today was so good. Three years ago if you'd have told me I'd snog Sirius Black in the astronomy tower on my last day of school I'd have told you you were mad. It's amazing how much changes in three years.
I kissed Sirius Black. No, I snogged him. Merlin, that's so strange to admit, even in writing. What's even stranger is that I enjoyed it. Oh, God did I enjoy it.
Kissing Sirius was nothing like kissing a girl. Sure it was gentle at first, almost sweet but he tastes different and girls don't have stubble that scratches your chin. It didn't take very long to get a bit more heated though and that was certainly a difference to snogging a bird. It was all forceful lips and grazing teeth and a fight for dominance and it was brilliant.
Having kissed him I suppose I have to admit that I've finally given in. He broke me, wore me down and I folded but if I'd have known it could be like this I would have given in a long time ago.
“I remember that.” Sirius smirked, “I asked you to meet me in the astronomy tower so we could look out over the grounds and castle one last time.”
“And then you threw yourself at me.” Remus grinned. He loved teasing Sirius, especially when it came to their reminiscing.
“Oi, I don't remember you ever complaining about it. In fact, I seem to remember you groaning shamelessly and pressing me rather roughly into the stone wall.”
“It was the night before the full moon...” Remus insisted.
“Excuses.” Sirius shook his head with a grin.
“Perhaps so,” He agreed.
“But I wouldn't change a thing about that night.” The animagus told him leaning in to gently press his lips to the other mans.
“Nor would I.”
Maybe life wasn't always perfect, and maybe Sirius had really had to work for what he'd wanted but in the end it had all been worth it. After so much misery and heartache Remus thought that it was about time they got to enjoy themselves and finally just be the lovers they'd wanted to be. Sure, Sirius had changed but so had he. It had been 12 years. 12 hard years but now they could finally live their lives.
Together.
September 29th, 1995
One final journal entry. I'm older now, more grey and hopefully wiser. So many things change in twelve years. I look in the mirror some days and wonder where the time has gone. I look at Sirius and think of all the time together that we lost. It saddens me to think of what could have been and what never was but I mustn't dwell on such things.
I have Sirius back now. After twelve years apart I finally have him again and when I look into those familiar grey eyes I can forget for a time all the bad that's happened and feel young again. Lost in his gaze, in his arms I can be 18 and carefree once more and that's a feeling I wouldn't trade for anything.
I may not know what tomorrow holds. I may not know how long we'll be granted on this Earth, but I do know that I want each and every day left to be spent together. Nothing ever seems quite so bad with him around and I think that perhaps even death, whenever it comes, will be all right so long as I have him by my side.
Remus J. Lupin