Day 2 - Fic: Team Star: If This Life Isn't Enough

[rsgamesmods]

Team: Star
Title: If This Life Isn't Enough
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: None
Word Count: 3,916
Summary: Sirius' memory has become a strange thing. It's veiled in clouds, but he looks for sunshine anyway.
Notes: I wrote this to the full-length version of How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful (Versus the short version in the prompt post.)
Prompt: 12 - short

Comments

[cevennes]

I'm honestly a little speechless over this, in a really breathless, tight-throat sort of way--it's so exquisitely, impossibly beautiful, every fragment of memory rendered so viscerally; it's a perfect glimpse into Sirius's mind over the years, as heartbreaking as it is evocative and jagged-edged.

And I love the pieces of Peter you've written into it, his subtle deception that's unsubtle in hindsight, and the cracks that formed between them--that love really wasn't enough, after all. The ending left my nose running PROFUSELY, there's so much grief and pain and hope there at the very end, and for Sirius, for the first time in so, so long. This is a gem, and it's DEFINITELY going to stick with me for a long time. <3

[dogsunderfoot]

Absolutely incredible. I could try to pick out little bits and pieces that I liked, but I'd have to rewrite the whole story. Everything in this story has emotion twisted all around it, and you did a beautiful job of rendering the anger and sadness, the hopelessness and the faint traces of hope.

I loved your characterisations and the explanations of the things that happened. Your portrayal of Peter is exactly how I've always pictured him, and so that always deserves extra points in my book.

Beautiful and sad and fabulous. So, very, very well done!

[phiso_kun]

What kind of man is he that people can believe he is capable of such things?

This. I don't know why, in nearly 15 years, this question hasn't occurred to me before. I thought I knew the answer. I thought it was clear: they suspected his background, his temper, his mean streak. But reading this made me realize what this actually means. Never before have I really understood what it must have been like for Sirius, who had such a good, earnest, wild heart, to know that the entire world thought that his love and loyalty were nothing but a farce, when in reality they were what kept him going. These things made him who he was, and everyone thought it was a lie

[olivier_dathos]

Wow I just loved this so much!!

The characterisations were amazing; Peter in all of his premeditated and calculating intention and Sirius with his muddled memories and having to live with that question of how people could have thought he was capable of that. Remus was beautiful and Lily and James had such a small part but still managed to make so much impact.

There are so many parts of this that I could pull out to love, but I'm just going to say that I love the whole thing and thank you so much for writing it. I've never read anything that quite covered this aspect of their story so perfectly.

[leontinabowie]

This is a tragic but beautiful story, so painful to read - you create such an empathic relationship to Sirius. Your writing style is wonderful, able to evoke feelings of sadness and the sombre atmosphere. I loved every word ♥