bleh

[roxybisquaint]

Here's what happens when you quit smoking:

Anxiety. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Depression. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Depression. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Depression. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Anxiety. Depression. Anxiety. Depression.

Comments

[gothamite66]

Big*HUG*

It will get better. And always remember...

Never give up.

[roxybisquaint]

Thank you.

Never give up.

I won't. I'll never give up, never stop fighting :)

[sabaceanbabe]

Have you thought about maybe getting a general check up, just to make sure there isn't some other problem that the smoking may have masked? :(

And let me know if you want a vid beta. I'm happy to take a look at it.

Hmm.

[trystanknight]

I'm with sabaceanbabe (coolest username ever) on this one, a quick checkup after ditching cigs is never a bad thing, the doctor may be able to help you out. Also, they might be able to prescribe something short-term only for the depression and anxiety to help you get through this.

Beyond that, I think the aging and soreness are actually symptoms of quitting more-addictive drugs like cocaine and stuff, so what you may be seeing there is the temporary trauma your body's going through as it adapts to life without the cigarettes. Also, soreness is a side effect of severe stress, which you're sure under during this trying time.

I suspect it will all turn back around in another month or so, depending on how your body reacts (everyone's so different, one can't make sweeping generalizations). Keep strong like Sarah, keep conquering the things, and maybe see if you can get any help from the doctor. Be well, Roxy!

[roxybisquaint]

Yeah I probably should, but I've been stalling to give quitting smoking time to do whatever it's going to do to my cholesterol (it was slightly high in July and I'm overdue for retesting).

And let me know if you want a vid beta. I'm happy to take a look at it.

Yay. I was going to ask you to beta it when I finished, so I'm definitely going to take you up on that offer.

[spectralbovine]

I have no experience quitting smoking, but I imagine that it will be shitty until it gets better. Although a co-worker of mine felt much much better almost immediately, so it could be different for everyone.

[roxybisquaint]

it will be shitty until it gets better

That totally needs to be in a fortune cookie.

It definitely affects people differently. Since I've felt so crappy, I've searched out all these issues and found plenty of other people that have gone through the same things. So at least I know I'm not alone... and not entirely crazy :P

[indiefic]

I hear the 'oh you'll feel SO much better immediately' crap all the time but in the last 18 months both my best friend and my boss quit smoking after more than a decade and their experiences (from what they told me and/or screamed at people on the street) is pretty much what you're describing.

A year out both of them now say they feel better day to day but it was a long road. And their senses of taste and smell took a long time to improve. Also both of their respiratory problems got a lot worse before they finally improved across the board.

Hang in there. You're kicking ass.

[roxybisquaint]

Thanks. I have no plans of quitting my quitting, but I really needed to vent. And it really helps to know other people have gone through similar experiences.

I guess for some it's a few days of withdrawal, some grumpiness and then WOW I feel great while they fight off cravings for a couple weeks. But I'm starting to believe they're the minority, even though it's mostly what you hear about. I never thought I'd be like this (and certainly not for this long).

Recovering from addiction

[tackdriver56]

+1 on the doctor visit, if you haven't done it recently. It's only money and time, and exposure to God-knows-what in the waiting room.

Mom reported an transient increase in respiratory problems when she quit. Your lungs, formerly patiently awaiting death, are now struggling to resume their normal cleansing functions.

Also, you're still inhaling a neurotoxin: nicotine, from your e-cig. Is there a doctor involved in your dosing schedule?

The tooth nightmare: I accept full responsibility. A week after the dental work I wrote about, I'm *almost* healed and free of discomfort. Almost. I regret mistreating my teeth in my youth. My dentist is a good soul, but I wish my only relationship with her was unprofessional. (Is that wrong to say?)

Re: Recovering from addiction

[roxybisquaint]

The tooth nightmare: I accept full responsibility.

GUILTY! Ha. It probably is your fault. I'm so wrapped up in myself right now, I'd forgotten about your dental hell. Glad you're doing okay. No more lollipops, bubble gum, or late night Snickers bars for you.

you're still inhaling a neurotoxin: nicotine, from your e-cig. Is there a doctor involved in your dosing schedule?Oh, toxin schmoxin. The only way nicotine is playing into all this is if I'm not getting enough of it. But no, there's no doctor consult on this. There's nothing they could tell me anyway. When I want to break the nicotine dependence then I just do what you do with regular NRTs and reduce the strength over a few months time

Re: Recovering from addiction

[tackdriver56]

Ferrara Pan Atomic Fireballs. My downfall. Sugar Daddy was a good one, too, but Fireballs were the best