It's tricky for me, I think, because even after ten month I'm still not used to being on my own. Responsibility and self motivation aren't the concern; it's dealing with the uncertainty that's hardest. Going home doesn't feel like home anymore. I don't feel as self assured in the apartment, either.
Fingers crossed, and my toes. Maybe I just need to give it more time.
Haha, I shouldn't forget that even if I feel alone, I'm not, really.
We as people are constantly changing. My mother is happier at sixty than she ever was at fifty. A friend of mine always rants that he's "twenty-x now, and it's too late for him, he's missed too much!" and I just want to smack him.
Finding yourself is tricky, true. It's walking down a path that is at once well worn and dark and slippery. Just step carefully and remember if you trip and fall on your ass NO ONE SAW ANYTHING.
WHAT IS THIS CLUMSINESS YOU SPEAK OF? Thanks, Ari-chan. This really helps <3.
Transitional periods are the toughest, you know? I'm getting to be more social, doing more things, taking responsibility for myself, but I don't feel the easy confidence that I had with my old routine. When things change, all we can do is adapt. Change, like you said. I think I'm still finding my legs.
Time should solve it. Talking about it helps. I'll probably look back on this in a few months and romantise how great it was even with the uncertainty, but that's life, right?
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Fingers crossed.
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Fingers crossed, and my toes. Maybe I just need to give it more time.
Haha, I shouldn't forget that even if I feel alone, I'm not, really.
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♥ exactly.
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Finding yourself is tricky, true. It's walking down a path that is at once well worn and dark and slippery. Just step carefully and remember if you trip and fall on your ass NO ONE SAW ANYTHING.
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Transitional periods are the toughest, you know? I'm getting to be more social, doing more things, taking responsibility for myself, but I don't feel the easy confidence that I had with my old routine. When things change, all we can do is adapt. Change, like you said. I think I'm still finding my legs.
Time should solve it. Talking about it helps. I'll probably look back on this in a few months and romantise how great it was even with the uncertainty, but that's life, right?
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