Re: 500 Recipes for Bread!

[ros_fod]

When I click on the subject line of LJ's update interface, this is one of the options that comes up. Also, "Fwd: WHAT A COMPLETE DISASTER." Which makes me think that at some point I must have tried to bake 500 loaves of bread and failed? And then just repressed the memory. As one does

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[swmbo]

Oh oh oh! But I *want* #3! I want number 3 from you so much it hurts!!

[ros_fod]

Okay, here's the thing. Why is this interesting? It seems to me that it's only interesting if "Connor" is Connor, so he still has the same issues -- he feels like his father abandoned him, like he's alone in this world, like everything sucks and no one listens and he's angry and frustrated and terrified. And if Angel deals with him in similar ways -- essentially, trying his best and failing, trying to mine patience, and failing, and ultimately resorting to terse words and some slamming up against walls and rough fucking.

But if I were going to write that story, why wouldn't I just write an Angel/Connor story for reals? What is it about having Connor be human and unrelated to Angel that *adds* to the story? I don't know.

[swmbo]

I wanted to answer this but couldn't on the road! The road to voting, anyway

[ros_fod]

Yes, I think this is exactly it. Keep the push-pull dynamic between them, because I don't want to write an OC, I want to write Connor as a human boy, but without the crippling guilt and the years in Quortoth, we have more common ground to work with.

YAY?

[cosmic]

. I spent yesterday clawing at the walls in that way you do when you feel like you need to write something, anything and you can't believe that what you really feel like writing is the AU in which Connor isn't Angel's son, but some foster kid that Angel's taken in. Cordelia keeps having visions of this kid getting killed in the most gruesome ways. Kid's rudderless and homeless and Angel reluctantly takes him in, only to have Connor push every one of his buttons and taunt him at every turn and make Angel itch to break his neck just so he doesn't have to deal with all the attitude anymore.

Good lord. I'm so in love with just the idea of that. I remember thinking, when I first saw the audition, that the audtion role would have been such a fun character. Please do write that, if you're able to come to grips with it in your head. Because that would be awesome.

[ros_fod]

I remember thinking, when I first saw the audition, that the audtion role would have been such a fun character.

It totally would have been! And they would have had, mad, mad chemistry because VK and DB sizzled whenever they were on screen together and everyone would have slashed then and written reams and reams of storys because there's no incest ick and it would have been GLORIOUS.

I'm trying, god help me. I will keep trying.

extra reasons for why this would be awesome

[cosmic]

This is what that story would add to the picture: Angel would have lost Connor to Holtz and never gotten him back, so this Angel lost Connor for good, and here's this kid that might be his second (third, fourth, fifth?) chance to make things right, help the helpless and all. Just...because. Who wouldn't want that? (Also, that kid would have his own excess baggage of whatever horrible childhood he had, but it wouldn't be caused by *Angel*, and eventually, the two of them might work out okay without anyone getting their throats slashed

Re: extra reasons for why this would be awesome

[ros_fod]

First, let's just pretend that I didn't just write "storys." Second, your brain make my brain squee so hard.

Also, that kid would have his own excess baggage of whatever horrible childhood he had, but it wouldn't be caused by *Angel*, and eventually, the two of them might work out okay without anyone getting their throats slashed.

Yes, yes, yes and yes. This is exactly the thing, I think. Is that whatever is driving Connor's rage and fear, it wouldn't necessarily be Angel, although certain this Connor is annoyed by Angel's rules and Angel's lectures and Angel's...Angelness to a large degree (in the beginning, anyways) because he's used to being on his own and he keeps trying to act like "alone" means "independent" when ultimately, he just doesn't want to get too attached because when you get attached to people, they have a tendency to leave you behind and it's this big power struggle thing with Connor not wanting to give in and Angel being desperate to break through and see-saw, see-saw, end in buttsex. And handholding.

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[lettered]

3. ohyesplease. because I've *always* thought there should be audition!fic.

[lynnenne]

1. The horror! The horror!

2. Aaawwwww! Thank you so much. :) *blushes and beams and squishes you tightly*

3. I volunteer to help in any way I can. Also, why have I never seen that screen test before?!? *flails*

4. Why have I never seen that trailer before?!? *flails and dies*

[ros_fod]

The absolute best part of his audition vid is that there are some key things missing from it because he didn't know he'd be this kid raised in a hell dimension by a guy with a low, low voice. So there's all this anger, but no terror. All this attitude, but no sense of how deadly, dangerous he can be. He put all that stuff in later, once they'd revealed the real character to him.

In other words, VK PLEASE MARRY ME.

I'm taking you up on your offer of help, you better believe it. Every little snag, I'm going to be like, HEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPP.

[kita0610]

I uhm. Just ordered the video.

[ros_fod]

Woooooooot!