I am insanely jealous of people with functional families.

My brother stole $100 from me. That was my fucking food money.
It feels like the ultimate betrayal.

I'm sleeping with a 35-year-old. This is probably wrong on several levels.

So I guess the last post can now officially be amended to "so I'm kind of dating/fucking this guy"
I had sex with him despite the fact that we really have only been dating for a week and I still don't think I like him all that much, though he is growing on me some...

I guess I'm not ready to get rid of him.

So I'm kind of dating/fooling around with this guy. I like him okay but not romantically. The thing I like is that he likes me. I like feeling wanted. I should break it off but I don't completely want to because it feels good and I'm kind of hoping he'll grow on me.

I'm pathetic.

Therapy Thursday couldn't come sooner. I feel as if I am going to completely lose it any minute now.

Every time I think I am finally tired enough to fall asleep, my mind wanders back to the fact that I haven't been able to sleep in the last two days, and then inevitably that leads to my thinking about why I haven't been able to sleep. and then I can't sleep again.

Make it stop.

I feel like I could die.

My family is spinning out of control and all I can do is thank god that I am not anywhere near them ( Read more... )

I had a truly awful day today. Nothing particularly bad happened, but I felt like dying all day. I was barely able to get myself out of bed and even then I wasn't able to until about 5pm. I had five classes today; I didn't go to one. I jokingly refer to myself as Allegra 2.0 because I've been doing better in school and in life, in general, but ( Read more... )

I don't know what I truly want in life; I don't know what, if anything, will make me happy.
I guess I just want people to like me. How sad.