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robertauld

a letter

Apr 18, 2010 10:47

Good morning, Livejournal. I haven't been blogging on here very often for the past few weeks.
Yesterday was my sister's due date. She hasn't had the baby yet. We're waiting and I'm nervous but I know that he will come when he's ready.
And to be completely honest, I'm horrified. I don't know if I've ever been so afraid in my whole life.

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dang anonymous April 18 2010, 17:01:00 UTC

Now I'm crying a little. Thanks a lot.

I failed miserably at the Day of Silence.

I really hope things go well with your dad.

Re: dang robertauld April 18 2010, 17:37:20 UTC

:] I failed, too. But I tried.
Me too. I'm sure they will.

anonymous April 19 2010, 03:51:43 UTC

Dear Robby,

I don't know you other than from what I've read on the different spaces where you express your thoughts. I want you to know that I think you are brave, I think you are amazing, and I think you are loved. It's never easy to be true to one's self, and at such a young age you've realized who you are and what you want to do in life. I admire this, considering I am 33 and I have yet to discover what it is I want in life. Be strong, you are one special human being, and something tells me the people around you, who really know you, realize that you are extremely special, and are honored to have you in their lives.

Sincerely,

Josefina Dieguez
Dominican Republic

anonymous April 19 2010, 15:25:12 UTC

Robby, I really wish you would give him this letter. It's perfect. Waiting to tell him isn't going to change anything. It's not going to be "better" when you're 18 or 35. You are such a talented writer that the way you express yourself in words, in this letter, is going to touch him. I promise. The most important part of it that he won't be able to ignore is that you didn't choose to be gay.

Oh well, you'll do it on your own time, but I have a feeling it will be sooner rather than later because of how mature you are and how comfortable you seem to be with who you are.

*Hugs*

robertauld April 19 2010, 17:42:24 UTC

I'm not really sure how I'm going to tell him yet. Maybe I'll give him this letter. Maybe I'll just sit him down and tell him. I have to face it and I have to just tell him but, honestly, I'm scared shitless. I don't think I've ever used that saying before but I think it fits right now.
Thank you for your comment, Anonymous. Thank you. :]

anonymous April 20 2010, 00:59:53 UTC

Face it and deal with it and then it will be done with. How how he deals with it is his problem. Maybe he already has a feeling. A lot of parents do. For your sake, whenever you do tell him, I hope he tells you he loves you no matter what. And he will. Maybe not right away, but he will.

Did you happen to watch The Real World this season where the kid came out to his family? It was really good.

Lynne (Anonymous)
from Lynne's Book Reviews :)

robertauld April 20 2010, 12:51:59 UTC

Lynne! I'm so glad it's you. :]
I haven't seen that episode of The Real World. Maybe I'll hunt it down.
I'll tell him soon. I'm sure I'll write about it again when I do.

Robby. anonymous April 22 2010, 02:03:32 UTC

Robby, That letter to your father, made me cry! It was so well put together, and It was just beautifully written. I Loved it. And I know that we don't talk that much, But believe it or not, I think about you, almost everyday. It might sound weird, But its not. You are a beautiful writer, and I really love your work, Its wonderful. Thanks, Robby. -Colin[:

Robby. (Cont.) anonymous April 22 2010, 02:15:27 UTC

Oh, And. I could also relate to loads of the stuff in the letter. When I was little, my dad always signed me up to play football, and baseball, and basketball, and loads of different sports, But I never ever wanted to do any of them. I only played them because they made him happy, and I didn't want to disappoint him. The day I quit the sports, I knew that Him and I would not have such a strong father/son relationship that everybody dreams of. I always thought what it would be like if I stayed with the sports, Who would I be today? Would I be different? Probably. Would I be friends with the people I am, right now? I doubt it. When I was really little, I loved playing Barbie, and Polly Pockets with my older sister. And we would play house, and I would always want to be the mother. It was odd, now that I think about it, But I liked it, and thats all I cared about. I never liked sports, or fixing stuff, or building stuff, like my Father intended about me... I always wanted to become a Lawyer, or a Realtor. Not a Mechanic, or a Carpenter ( ( ... )

Re: Robby. (Cont.) robertauld April 22 2010, 18:25:09 UTC

Oh Colin!
Thank you. :]