I wish we were still in June.

[robearberbil]

So, a conversation with a friend a couple nights ago has had me thinking. What is it I really want? I'm not talking about lofty things here, I'm talking about little things here and there that would make me happy. Things in other people and myself that I have been looking for and wanting.

I found out some things . . .

Comments

[alexkrycek42]

It's a good first step to really sit down and think about what we want sometimes. It's also good to remember to be flexible, but also know what you absolutely must have or it just wont work. On those things, never compromise - only you... can prevent forest fires. ^_^ And also only you can do whats best for yourself.

It's also okay to stop looking, as long as the subtext here doesn't mean "I want to stop looking [and close off my heart]". <3 I know you're bitter and angry right now, but give yourself some time to heal.

[robearberbil]

By saying: "that doesn't mean I won't stop looking. Because, more than anythings else: I want to stop looking," I mean that I want to stop looking forever. I want to find what it is I want and I will keep looking; even though I don't think I'll ever find it. Because finding it is the only way I will be ABLE to stop looking.

And yes, I am bitter and angry . . . as for healing, I know that will happen.

[alexkrycek42]

*dumps sugar down your pants and FLEEEEEEES*

[robearberbil]

Well, now I guess I'm just angry and chaffing in my pants.