Fuck this ( Read more... )

So I guess there are talks of me going to treatment.
For alcohol abuse.
Especially now that since I got here I have drank like a 30 rack a night.
and I have pretty much been that way for the last month and a half.

My stomache is tore up,
but I don't really even care.

I've hit rock bottom,
and I can't get back up.

So ( Read more... )

I went to my ex-boyfriends house for like 2 hours with a friends, he lives a block away from me and I had nothing to do ( Read more... )

What the fuck is up with livejournal becoming my new souce of bullshit.

"I love you"
Never meant so little.

Friends my ass.

Last night was interesting.
It entailed:
16 cherry/apple bombs.
Half a bottle of wine.
Two Apple Rockstar drinks.
And a beer.

Pretty fucked up.
Grayson and his friend walked over..
it was pretty wierd.
and awkward.

Anyways...
dont feel too good today.

So... my handhurts.
It looks like its going to be like that for a while.
I only type with one hand.

Bored.
Doctors today.
ugh.
He never called me back.:(

and im tired of it.

Isn't it funny that you never really know how much you care about somebody ( Read more... )

From now on...

I'm just going to Walk it Out.
Cause that seems to work for me.

I need to find a place for my cat to stay.
Kinda sucks.

I love how so many positive things can go on in my life...
yet it always contains so much stress.

I like living with girls.
Maybe I will start to be me again.

Man whores will be man whores.

Nobody can change them.. no matter how hard you try.
If it's not you... it will be someone else.

I just wish there was someone who could care for me.
But not 20 other girls also that he is bullshitting to.