Thoughts of a Dying Shammanist

[riot9]

I don't expect anyone  to see this save maybe Jeremy as he's on here alot and i doubt anyone else really would notice, but I'm lost. I've spent the last two years of my life being in love with someone who isn't in the same place as me emotionally. He may never be for all i can tell. ALways interested in whats new and exciting, while i am

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[mysticspyrall]

First, my posts aren't eloquent, they're mostly unadultered emotions and anxiety.

With that out of the way, I think I might have an understanding of being in a different place as someone else. Obviously I'll never know or be able to fully realize your exact situation, but from what you've said, it really seems like his "live in the moment" attitude may be tied to his fear of being deported/not being able to have anything concrete. I'd live in the moment as well if everyday I was reminded that I could never be a permanent fixture in this society.

I mean, it may seem like a longshot, but maybe you could come up with a plan. Or at least a way to try and set him at ease about the fear. I mean, it's hard to imagine a long term thing with someone when you can't even guarantee one is possible, right?

I don't know I'm talking out of my ass again. If nothing else, remember I'm here. If you need anything, just say the word.