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How did I get the idea for "Tenebrosity"?
When I thought about writing this story it was during a conversation that I had with a friend about my life and me reading her what I'd written in regards to how I was feeling at the time. What would later begin the first chapter of Tenebrosity and some of the second (I later split some parts of this up) was me writing about myself and how I felt due mostly to the impending loss and years of pain, loss of control and aggravation about a personal situation many of you may know about. In a way, what I wrote was a journal entry, I just didn't intend to share it. It was roughly 500 words or so and after I wrote I thought back to a summary I'd written a few months before for a Brian/Justin fic.
The original summary (what later became more like extensive timeline), was much different than what I ended up writing into the 'final' timeline. It was more relaxed and not as in depth as what it would become. With one particular line following my original 'journal entry', what I wrote became something more than just me getting out my thoughts. It became Tenebrosity, just one line and it changed everything. The words took a hold of me and I had to write the story. I had to bring it back to the basics and discover the who, what, why, when and where's and the biggest question that comes to mind after reading the beginning paragraph: HOW? How did Brian and Justin get HERE?
And from there, I got to work building up a timeline that would answer all these questions while I geared up to write this fiction for the Nanowrimo 2009 50,000 word challenge.
The main subject of this story is as delicate as it is rough. When I began to write on November 1, 2009, I had that first paragraph written and that first punch of a line that really began the story and I also had Brian, Justin and Gus speaking to me, or should I say screaming at me.
And as I began what filtered into my head first was "...it's too late now, there's no turning back".
I've heard Brian say this so many times to me in my head since the first day I began to write almost two years ago. Whenever I'd get to any point in this fiction where I might have been reluctant to really go as deep, dark and intense as needed to keep with the integrity of the plot, his words were there daring me to go further.
Not everyone will want to read this story. I don't need to know if this story isn't for you. But anything else anyone may like to discuss is fine with me. I will take the opportunity now to say that about ten years post-series this is who I imagine Brian and Justin to be after they have been enveloped by the main plot. It may not be what everyone sees as what their version of Brian and Justin is, every one of us is different, but I have done my best to (during the fic) explain the years post-series up to the plot so that you will slowly learn the answers to the questions you have about Brian and Justin.
I have done my research, perhaps too much at times, and even taken possibly too much time reading about the subject in this story and twined it with my own feelings in my life and combined this with who I know Brian Kinney and Justin Taylor is. So... in the words of Brian Kinney,"There's no turning back."
Tenebrosity Chapter 1
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When I thought about writing this story it was during a conversation that I had with a friend about my life and me reading her what I'd written in regards to how I was feeling at the time. What would later begin the first chapter of Tenebrosity and some of the second (I later split some parts of this up) was me writing about myself and how I felt due mostly to the impending loss and years of pain, loss of control and aggravation about a personal situation many of you may know about. In a way, what I wrote was a journal entry, I just didn't intend to share it. It was roughly 500 words or so and after I wrote I thought back to a summary I'd written a few months before for a Brian/Justin fic.
The original summary (what later became more like extensive timeline), was much different than what I ended up writing into the 'final' timeline. It was more relaxed and not as in depth as what it would become. With one particular line following my original 'journal entry', what I wrote became something more than just me getting out my thoughts. It became Tenebrosity, just one line and it changed everything. The words took a hold of me and I had to write the story. I had to bring it back to the basics and discover the who, what, why, when and where's and the biggest question that comes to mind after reading the beginning paragraph: HOW? How did Brian and Justin get HERE?
And from there, I got to work building up a timeline that would answer all these questions while I geared up to write this fiction for the Nanowrimo 2009 50,000 word challenge.
The main subject of this story is as delicate as it is rough. When I began to write on November 1, 2009, I had that first paragraph written and that first punch of a line that really began the story and I also had Brian, Justin and Gus speaking to me, or should I say screaming at me.
And as I began what filtered into my head first was "...it's too late now, there's no turning back".
I've heard Brian say this so many times to me in my head since the first day I began to write almost two years ago. Whenever I'd get to any point in this fiction where I might have been reluctant to really go as deep, dark and intense as needed to keep with the integrity of the plot, his words were there daring me to go further.
Not everyone will want to read this story. I don't need to know if this story isn't for you. But anything else anyone may like to discuss is fine with me. I will take the opportunity now to say that about ten years post-series this is who I imagine Brian and Justin to be after they have been enveloped by the main plot. It may not be what everyone sees as what their version of Brian and Justin is, every one of us is different, but I have done my best to (during the fic) explain the years post-series up to the plot so that you will slowly learn the answers to the questions you have about Brian and Justin.
I have done my research, perhaps too much at times, and even taken possibly too much time reading about the subject in this story and twined it with my own feelings in my life and combined this with who I know Brian Kinney and Justin Taylor is. So... in the words of Brian Kinney,"There's no turning back."
Tenebrosity Chapter 1
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