i think i just about do care if i live or die. yeah, if someone tried to kill me, i'd fight for my life, but i feel like there's not anything here worth anything...here being me. i'm not worth the goddamn effort.
i'm addicted to lj. i'm here for hours everyday, trying to drown myself in trivial shit, trying to maybe scope out a bit of identity from the bits i glean from people i know or e-stalk. but there's no point. i do it just to hide, to avoid facing myself, to run from being alone and able to realize how much i'm fucking myself up and over.
Dude, I know exactly what you mean. That's pretty much how I spend most of my life. It blows and I wish I had something uplifting to tell you, but I don't. Just hang in there and know that there are people out there that care about you. *hugs*
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i'm addicted to lj. i'm here for hours everyday, trying to drown myself in trivial shit, trying to maybe scope out a bit of identity from the bits i glean from people i know or e-stalk. but there's no point. i do it just to hide, to avoid facing myself, to run from being alone and able to realize how much i'm fucking myself up and over.
Dude, I know exactly what you mean. That's pretty much how I spend most of my life. It blows and I wish I had something uplifting to tell you, but I don't. Just hang in there and know that there are people out there that care about you. *hugs*
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