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[repetitivefool]

ok.. i was gonna do something pretty stupid... and i'm stopping myself, officially. i'm writing it down and pointing it out... cuz this way i have at least some backup to support myself with.

i feel like shit but i'm happy you're happy.... in some sad sick pathetic little wayi gotta say, 6 months ago i woulda never guessed turning 21 would be such

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[crystachick]

well sorry you feel that way, we all go through depressions and not all life is roses and butterflies. Infact most of life is shit the key to it is to be happy no matter what. Not fake happy, truly happy. I do it, I'm always alone, no one has ever been in my bed or really there to make me happy. I do it with fresh thoughts of my eyes on the Horizon and what wonderful things are to come. Now that I'm near the end of my tunnel I can kinda see some really nice things out there...but they say that the otherside of the tunnel only reflects what you felt as you went through it. Hell, you should never take this life seriously...everyone is going to die someday anyway. And before you decide to off yourself, you should sit down and think about everything that will Not happen because of you Not being there. You may not know it but you could be the meaning to some one else's happiness too, and you'd be taking that away...bad karma man....besides you'd probably only come back to this life in a more shitty form and start this horrid process

[repetitivefool]

i kinda believe in karma n all... more like "instant karma", as in 'you reap what you sew', not reincarnation. i think you just move on to something else... or maybe not. but even if i did come back as something else, with the life i've lived, it wouldn't be human; and humans are the ones with all the problems... emotions, responsibilities, logic, etc.

believe me, i think about that shit all the time... and i honestly don't know if making it through the tunnel is worth what might lay on the other side. look at all the problems everyone else gets to deal with living their normal lives. add in all the baggage i got going on in my past and going on in my head, and just try to imagine what might come. that light at the end of the tunnel is looking pretty dim.

hehe, besides, you have and will most-likely always have the one piece to your puzzle i lack... take that as specifically as you want (as a certain person) or as generically as you want (as what that person is to you and does for you)..it's up to you.