Not that anybody reads this thing anymore.....

[rena_quinn]

I thought I had made like super progress. I finally took my therapists advice and kicked him out of my life. I was promoted to work in the office, I was waking up happy, I WASN'T crying myself to sleep, I was excited about moving, and just my whole life was like 200% better. That's not to say I didn't think about him everyday, but it didn't hurt me

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[linkdrew]

You still consider Whitney your friend, thats funny. She only does that kinda shit because she knows it gets to you. And trust me she didn't hear that from me, I refuse to talk to her, I have talked a little to Mel, who as I know you know, you should keep her close because she is a great friend. And don't worry life for me has not been easy, I throw up on a daily basis, I had to smoke an entire pack last night because now I have to beat a guy close to death and all this before I get to walk away from everything I have ever known. Life is hard all over, and if you think I don't think of you ask my friend Mike Schneider. We talked about you last night on how ya your a little bit bigger of a girl but how you were still exceptionally pretty. I'm sorry your putting yourself through this hell. But get out of it, you have your entire life ahead of you. You say your therapist told you to cut me outta your life, maybe it needed to be done, but you need also cut those shitty "friends" out as well.

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[rena_quinn]

How does talking about how I'm fat mean you're thinking of me? And I know I shouldn't be friends with certain people, I'm just not the type of person to tell people off unless it's to defend a friend. But when it comes to straight up dragging my heart through the mud I guess I should loose her for that. I know Mel is the one who told her. Mel was pissed that she told me. And don't think I want life to be bad for you. I want you to be happy no matter what or who you're with, I'm just never going to get over the fact that its not me. It's funny, I was fileing today and came across a name that reminded me of Schneider's and I spent the rest of my day faking a smile. Like I do anyways these days. And HEY what did I tell you? Don't talk to me. lol. You know I would never ignore you, and whenever you need me, I'm still only a phonecall or e-mail away. Technology, hah.
~<3~
~Becca
P.S. You're probably throwing up because you're smoking. That's the only reason my mom never could. She tried for a year and threw up everyday. And finally gave

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[linkdrew]

Sad part is I didnt throw up at all from the smoking, its because of how nervous I am every day knowing its close to my last. It actually did calm my nerves and make my head feel better, but I'm completely done now until another thing in my life decides to almost completely fall apart. Thanks for not wishing ill on me, its the last thing I need. When I mentioned me and Mike were talking about you, it was because there are ignorant people in this world who still believe in order to be beautiful you have to be damn near anorexic. Mike likes a girl who is "bigger" and his mom was like well don't you think shes a little big. Mike is sick with how shallow his mum is. I mentioned that because thats your case, your still a pretty girl, and I have hope that you will find someone good. Well I gatta go. Take care of yourself.

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[rena_quinn]

What do you mean your last? and what are you completely done with? And did you beat up that fag? N U take care of yourself as well.