Not sure if I wish I could be there to say goodbye

[remainsane]

Willow, my puppy (okay, she's 14) has to be put to sleep tomorrow because the cancer in her urethra has started to cause her too much pain. She can barely walk, she mopes around the house, and she's having even more trouble going to the bathroom than usual. Poor poochie. I miss her lots already. Every time I hear a dog bark I think of her. I just

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[latenightapathy]

Oh noes! Poor Willow! I'm sorry, Arielle... that's so sad. I hope you're doing alright. She was such a nice puppy.

[regatoni]

Oh Shmarielle, I'm so sorry. My mom put Cody to sleep without telling me while I was out of town for a day and even though I was kind of mad and obviously very upset that I didn't get to say goodbye, I'm kind of glad it happened that way. I knew my mom had no choice and there was nothing else she could do. Even though for a while I thought I would feel better if I had been able to hug her and pet her stinky body one last time, I can't imagine having to let go and watch her hobble to the car, or even worse watching as she closed her eyes for the last time. Like Willow, she did have a good life and a good family and I loved her enough while she was here to not need to say goodbye.

[remainsane]

Yeah, I think I'm glad it happened this way too. I know it's a lot easier on me being across the country than it is on my family and especially my dad who had to bring her to the vet to have her put down. At least I can put it out of my mind when I want to because there are no real reminders here.

I think she's the closest person (we always teased her that she was a person) to me to die. I'm so confused as to how to deal with it. I don't have much experience with death.

Also, it's so weird talking about her in the past tense.

And thanks.

[skinismy13]

i'm sorry girlie, at least when my pup went i ACTUALLY thought she was going to a farm. *sigh*. oh vilo.