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[redtheda]

I went with my son's class to a pool party at a luxury apartment complex, arranged by one of my son's classmates whose father is a developer. A ritzy place, but also very modular and looked like it was created by Ikea and came out of a box, with everything in coordinated palo verde green and black, waterfalls, umbrellas, shaded waterproof lounging

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[abstract_savant]

*hugs*

[amazon_waryr]

It is always somewhat baffeling when you lose someone/thing important and your world slows to a stop... and the rest of the world keeps moving. Sometimes the anguish and loss are so strong that everything has changed, nothing looks or feels the same.

I hope you find some solace in the people who love you. Be nice to yourself.

Hugs,
Jenn

[redtheda]

Thanks, I appreciate it. Things are tough right now for all of us, and it will probably be a long time before you and I can connect again, but I appreciate your hugs and good will when I see you.

[smrowe72]

...and i'm trying, to unlock a door with a key that's too big for my hands, and i drop it, and it falls at your feet, come on, come on, it's there at your feet, and i never, no i never ever realized...
...if i had enough time, or just some time, to revisit- to go back- to return, to open my mouth again, say something different this time...

~ebtg

(i hear this playing as i read about your day, it seems fitting even though it's just a smidgen of the song... i can feel you in there.)

[redtheda]

Ah, so THAT'S what the "ebtg" from your OKC profile was. Gotcha.

*picks up the key*

[redtheda]

Thanks, that's sweet. I know I'm not. It's a ridiculous insult anyway. The truth is my parents were college educated and his never were, I'm no more white trash than he is. He says it just because he knows it gets under my skin - he's pushing my buttons. And shit. My (now former) best friend's family are hicks from Globe...and my family, though educated, was always poor, I grew up with no money. You aren't your background, you are who you are, and people shouldn't be judged by that. I've learned recently and very painfully the consequence of such judgements.

[caprica]

this is one of the best entries i've seen that you've written.

it captured me -- you did an excellent job of conveying how you felt.

*hugs*

[redtheda]

Thanks for saying that, as I have to admit it was in some part inspired by your entries. That and I was just feeling contemplative yesterday.

[caprica]

eee!
oh, i don't think anyone's ever paid a high compliment like that to my writing.

THANK YOU!