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The Son’s Verdict

May 10, 2005 08:52

My son, P, issued his verdict to me last night. I am not a man ( Read more... )

existential doubt, ego, family, surrender, relationship, intimacy

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Re: The Son's Verdict anonymous May 13 2005, 04:53:55 UTC

I admire your capacity to love in the middle of such reflected pain - this is surely the measure of a real man - strength without the trappings of superficial machismo. I also believe that until P can stop blaming everyone else besides himself for his own problems, he will never find the courage or strength to really address the root problems in his life. I am also concerned about his stabiity and his drinking, and suspect a bi-polar condition. As long as he considers himself so much better than others, I also suspect an imbalance - because this is simply not true for any of us. It surely is a difficult and painful place to be in if this is true for him.

update on the son redslime May 14 2005, 05:41:13 UTC

I spoke with him today. It seems the imbibing while he was here recovering was less than supposed, but still more than I wanted. There is still much to be concerned about, but I love that he steps up to defend himself even if he does with such bristles. I pray for him. In my heart, I believe he is OK and recovering from the abuses of his life. He has made it to 24 and is now ready to be an adult. Hallelujah!