Video 004 // Absence

[redcloakedthief]

[He's trying very, very hard to smile while he makes this broadcast. Trying very hard to look unaffected, but as he runs his hand through his hair and laughs dryly, it's clear not all is right.]

...For those of you who knew her, Saya's gone. Her name is gone as well, so she must have gone [back to being dead-- A minute hesitation.] home.

[He

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[nogreenapples]

[ Lonely apartment is lonely. Just her and Motz now, huh..? Shirayuki frowns, keeping her head low and slowly petting the kitty. She's much worse at hiding her emotions. ]

Yeah, she...

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[nogreenapples]

... would probably be mad if I cried, huh?

[ And despite the pain, despite the sadness, Shirayuki lets out one laugh, moving a hand to wipe tears from her eyes.

Motz meows. 'Where's mommy Sayaaaaaa ;;;;' ]

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[redcloakedthief]

[...It's the cat. The cat's meow and Shirayuki looking at him like that and--

He laughs. Laughs until his breath catches and then he closes his eyes tightly, because what would losing it here do? He always had known this would happen. Always.

...but knowing isn't the same as experiencing, and really, all it feels is that he's lost someone else dear to him.

Again.]

...She wouldn't be pleased, you're right.

...Heh. Motz doesn't sound pleased.

[pristinestar]

...

[Really, he's doing his best not to cry. He's a big boy now. He shouldn't--shouldn't...

But it's difficult not to. He cares too much not to. Maybe a tear or two.]

... Can I come over, Mister Matthew?

[redcloakedthief]

[There's a long pause. He...doesn't want company, not really. But at the same time, he can't exactly turn Red away.

His eyes flick to Hector Cow, and his smile is forced.]

...Sure. I don't see why not. Do you know where I am?

[pristinestar]

[It's hard to track Matthew down, after all. Especially since he doesn't have a permanent place to live. Red's just going to guess-]

... Saya's apartment?

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[redcloakedthief]

[...]

[trainsmyromeo]

Saya-san is gone?

[Oh no D:. They just met and she was going to tell her all about Train and......

Just awwww.]

[redcloakedthief]

...That's right. She's...left Vatheon.

[Not gone back home. He can't bring himself to say it.]

Unfortunately, if you had business with her, it will have to be put on hold.

[trainsmyromeo]

I guess I should call Kuro-sama then....

[It will be like, the one voice mail she'll leave that is serious.]

[redcloakedthief]

[A long pause.]

"Kuro-sama"?

[Voice]

[first_scorned]

... Matthew. It would be wrong to blame Minatsuki for something completely out of her control, you realize.

[ He, personally, is only deepening his hate for Vatheon or whomever runs it right now. ]

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[redcloakedthief]

[There's a long, long, long pause. And a bit of a laugh, but it's pretty forced.]

Yes, I know. I don't blame her. I blame this world, but it's...

What was I expecting, anyway? There isn't any such thing as--

[A relationship that can last forever.]

[Voice]

[first_scorned]

[ He laughs. It's... there's no emotion to it. This is the laugh of a practiced, emotionless man. But he has no desire to show his own face right now... not yet, at least. ]

Of course not.

To begin with, bringing one back who is finished with life is simply cruel, you realize. If anything, she's been nothing but forced to be happy here.

[Voice]

[redcloakedthief]

[...ow ow ow ow ow.

He'd been forcing himself not to think of that, and then there it was, in his face. Saya is dead.

He doesn't respond for a longer pause this time.]

...Forced. That's a nice way to put it.

What is the purpose of...this?

[It's...infuriating, that's what it is. He is angry, because that is easier to deal with than being depressed. And it's a cool, controlled anger, because he knows he can use that sort of anger--]

We have to find it. I am tired of being an experiment, and I am sure you are too, Naoya.

[ninjaservant]

[...hm. it had taken him a bit to think of a response.]

...And to think we were just talking about this the other week.

[redcloakedthief]

[Likewise, it takes him a moment to respond.]

...What a coincidence.

[His tone makes it clear that coincidences are something he doesn't believe in.]

It seemed to be only proper to let everyone know.

[ninjaservant]

Which is very much appreciated. I suppose I better check on the young mistress-[pauses before he lets out a small laugh.]-though I suppose Master will be able to handle that.

You're not going to feel lonely, are you, Sir Matthew?

[redcloakedthief]

She did seem upset. [A beat] Though so long as someone checked in with her, it's no business of mine.

[...Heh.]

Of course not. I don't know why you would suggest so.