listening to my music... i wish i could scream. a wish a could scream a loud raw scream. that would be wonderful. i would do it all the time. when i sing along with music, singing along with bands. and just... singing. ahh. ahhh. ahhhhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

there is only a few things i can say about today.....

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i registered for school. i am fucking pissed. i wont take math analysis. no. fucking. way.

i do not want to go back to school. i remember the first week of last year. i cried everyday. every mother fucking shitty ass fucking day. i cried.
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i am lucky to have HIM.

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i feel better. just talking to him makes me feel better. for that little bit of time. maybe it will last longer today. yay!

fjdskfjasl!

i get a monkey for xmas if i am good. i AM good. i am a pirates lady. and that means i get WHATEVER i want. :)
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wowee wow! saturday is going to rock my socks.

i will wake up everyday, at 10ish. exhausted, because i stayed up too late. just thinking. trying to make sense of things. i can never sleep. then i will go at 1030 to community service. i will stay there until three. what do we do? we walk around... look for empty hangers. its like, its almost like we would fight over that empty hanger ( Read more... )

so lets play a game. called "describe how you dont feel ( Read more... )

the world is a sponge, and its sucking everyone up, but me. instead, i am a puddle that lingers and begins to smell. yep. thats me. that left over water the sponge never got. the backwash in a cup.
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i seriously, i want to.. i want to i want to i want to. i want chronic. i want to smoke chronic. right now. right now. i want to smoke, ( Read more... )

i hate how my mind can play tricks on me. how my mind can convince me of something, and make me do things because of it. i hate i hate i hate i hate. i hate how those things that it convinces me of arent true. and how my mind is just trying to protect myself from getting hurt. i hate that mind thinks i would get hurt. that in my mind, i am ( Read more... )

it wants to come out. it came from my heart. but i am smoothering it. i am choking on it, and trying to swallow, but it keeps surfacing. we'll see how long i can hold it in. i hope i dont choke and die ( Read more... )