Oh, things

[rebness]

I realised I hadn't written on my journal since Christmas, so have to rectify that. I wanted to tell you more about Amy, and my thoughts on everything, but I realised that I'm not quite ready yet. I started writing about her last night for an entry and the tears just wouldn't stop, so I guess I need to give it a bit more time

Comments

[moon_chylde]

Wow. When it rains it pours. *Hugs*

Glad to hear you guys got a pup. It's been my experience that a new pet always helps.

And I'll keep it at that. This is about you, not about me or anyone else. *more hugs*

[rebness]

Thank you. I knew you'd understand. *hugs back*

[pointedulac]

WOw that car accident sounds scary! Glad they're okay (if injured.. yikes... O.o)

Grief really is an insane thing. It's practically temporary insanity. You'll just being going about your day and suddenly a thought will strike, and you'll be locked in the office bathroom sobbing yours eyes out.

Glad you got a puppy. It's not a betrayal at all but I understand the feeling.

And I hope writing about your grief is cathartic. For some reason, we tend to feel ashamed of our grief which is ridiculous.

*ALL THE HUGS*

[airiddh1]

I hope you mum & dad are recovering okay *hugs*

Don't worry - you WILL come to love Ellie just the same. You can't expect to have the same depth of feeling right now that you built up over the years you & Amy had together but it will come in time. And you're not replacing her - you're just trying to fill the giant hole she has left. I think it was the right thing to do - it wouldn't matter how long you had waited, you'd still have had the same feelings - believe me - I know!

Well the year can only get better!!! Let's look forward... and we have another awesome trip to plan xxxx

PS I know you probably have plenty other ppl around you - but I'm always at the end of the phone if you ever need me *hugs*

[cloudsinvenice]

Whatever you need to do to help you and your family to cope is the right thing. But I do understand the feeling - it's hard when you simultaneously need the time and space to grieve, and the means of keeping everyday life together. <3

[kissxbangxbangx]

I realised I hadn't said how sorry I am about Amy yet. I really am so sorry, I know how heartbreaking it can be. It's been almost two years now since Sally died and although I still miss her like hell and still get upset and cry sometimes, I'm at the point now where I can talk about her, look at pictures of her, think about her and smile. It's a long road but time is indeed the greatest healer. I'm also sorry that you've been dealt such a shit hand in general over the last few weeks.

Another anecdote time! When Sal died, I couldn't imagine wanting another dog for a very, very long time. As it was, a couple of months after she died, I realised that I was desperately missing having a dog around. Dogs make me happy when nothing else will. And then I thought yes, I would like another dog and I felt really guilty at the thought of 'replacing' her. But then I realised that isn't what I'd be doing - I could never replace her with any dog, because there's no other dog like her. I wouldn't love another dog in the same way that I loved her,

[kissxbangxbangx]

I didn't mean for that to be so long, I'm sorry.