[Saga is sitting near the stream at the forest, gazing at the crystalline water that was running calmly and the blue, cleared sky every now and then. Near him is a white cat with a blue and yellow eye wearing a baby pink collar, a tiny bell attached to it rattling as the cat is jumping onto the flowers while chasing a butterfly
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[looks at Saga in dismay] No, it--it's not like that! I do love helping people. Really! And I don't expect anything from them.
But I...I gave things up. I left my home--my girlfriend. My family. Travelling with the Doctor was always supposed to be temporary. And then... Well, then it all went wrong, and I made him leave me on this little planet. I thought I had to--that I was protecting the people I love. It was a mistake. And if I hadn't found the Plane--met the Doctor again--I would've been stuck there forever.
But now... [sighs] Now I don't know what to do. If I went home, I'm still scared I'd only end up hurting them. That's what I meant. I love helping people, but... [softly] I miss my home. I miss the life I used to have.
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Saga sympathizes with him. He understands what Oliver had to sacrifice just to protect the ones he loved...
He had to do the same thing, only for the sake of the innocent people who lived in Sanctuary. The Gemini wanted to avoid a genocide, one that in the end... was imminent when his evil self took control.]
I... [Trails off a little, trying to find the courage and suitable words to speak.] Killing the Holy Father and taking his place was something I did not want. I wanted to succeed him the right way. I refused to take command, but the evil side inside me was too strong and capable of killing anyone if I did not accept...
[His voice turns a bit shaky.]... I had to live that way for thirteen years, wanting to die by my own hands. It was a tempting desire, but also unattainable...
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[uncertainly] But...I don't understand. What do you mean? The "evil side" inside you? [his expression is one of curiosity mixed with fear. he can't help wondering if Saga experienced something like the Puppeteer himself. it would certainly explain some things]
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I... [presses his lips a little] I denied the fact that evil existed inside me. I wanted... no, I needed to be an exemplary Saint, for Athena's sake and for my own. But... my jealousy and greed... and my brother's manipulation were the cause of... what led me to do afterwards.
[Instead of relief, the revelation only causes him to feel more guilt and shame.]
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You make it sound like there was...some evil thing inside you. Something else. I mean, other than you. I...still don't think I understand. But you aren't evil. I mean, I can see that.
I... [hesitates, but he thinks it needs to be said if he hopes to make sense of what Saga means] I had something in me once. Not the watch, but...a creature--a parasite. It got in me, and it found the darkness there. And it amplified it. That was--that was when I tried to kill Anna and the Doctor. Do you mean something like that?
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[Finally turns to meet Oliver's eyes. The sadness was visible in his own, more than usual. A crooked smile on his lips.]
I was born with it... and I was aware of that since childhood.
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[Nods hesitantly.] I... I am sorry if I am causing you distress.
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But... [pauses thoughtfully] That's why you said you didn't know if you'd do it again. Isn't it? Because that part of you is still in there?
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I believe Mu told you the truth already.
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You have such faith in people...
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And...I told you, I... [hesitates] I tried to kill people once, too. I don't want to think I have to be that person forever. That thing... [cringes, shaking his head]
And you don't have to be either. You aren't. That's all.
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He will find it humorous.
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