Never good enough?

[readingredhead]

So I got into Berkeley.  I went up to LA today for the interview for the Regent's/Chancellor's Scholarship and the lady who signed me in shook my hand and said, "I want to be the first person to congratulate you on your acceptance to this school."  Dad was there with me and he was freaking out, because Berkeley's his Alma Mater and I'm sure he'd

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[fallenrose24]

Shoot for the moon and you'll land among the stars;t he moon will always be there

[readingredhead]

I understand that it's not a bad thing to have big goals...I just feel like I should be more excited about Berkeley, and my goals are too big to let me. Which doesn't seem at all fair, to me and to others.

[readingredhead]

I don't think I was dreary enough. What I hate is that they want me to be dreary in the essay, but then they want me to go study at an essentially un-dreary place. I think the admissions staffers are completely separate from the "real school" and live in some sort of freezer that is opened every time they're needed.

[incaseineedyou]

Ha. For some reason I read the line "live in some sort of freezer that is opened every time they're needed." as "live in some sort of freezer that is opened every time they're naked."
Which is way more amusing than it should be. Good job with the 7th grade humor, Lauren. Really though, it reminds me of the descriptions of the Supreme Court in *America- The Book.* Which I'm done with, by the way, if you want to borrow it.

I know what you mean about trying to settle for something less than your dream. I think about colleges and I feel bad for considering the ones I'm looking at only "settling," because they really are very good schools, but I can't make myself happy for anything less than the one I imagined myself- until I am officially rejected from it, anyway. Hopefulls after that it will get easier to give up?

That school for me, however, is Berkeley. Haha.

[incaseineedyou]

and by "imagined myself," I meant "imagined myself in;" I didnot intend to say that I imagined Berkeley, all by myself.

and by hopefulls, I meant hopefully. I'm just really bad at typing.

[readingredhead]

They might be naked in there; I wouldn't know, having not seen the freezer.

Hopefully, we both get into exactly where we're supposed to be. And I don't mean that in the sense of "oh, everyone goes where it's right for them, even if you don't think it is" -- I've always felt this is a stupid way to keep from feeling bad for yourself, and not very realistic. I mean, hopefully I get into Stanford and you get into Berkeley. Because those freezing naked admissions directors are stupider than I thought if we don't get in.

[incaseineedyou]

Haha. I know exactly what you mean abou using the whole "it's just meant to be idea" to avoid dissapointment. Or really, avoid any connection with your life: responsibility, in both a good and a bad sense. You never have to be guilty but never can be proud, either. Sorry, I was thinking about that earlier.

I haven't seen the freezer either, but hopefully it's inhabitants,regardless of their attire (or lack thereof) are smart enough to let you in, and stupid enough to let me in.

[bluephoenix8807]

Its hard to provide consolation on an issue such as this. But for the moment, let's just hope that the Cardinal welcomes such a worthy student as yourself into its campus. The word "if" has a positive side too.

(Sorry; I probably can't help much, except say that I really hope you get in.)

[readingredhead]

I know, I don't really expect consolation because I figure it's something I have to find for myself, not something I can be given by other people. But it's good to know that people listen to my maniac rants? And that there are people rooting for me. That helps.

[cucumber_eyes89]

It may just be a step in this great dance.

[readingredhead]

I've never been much of a dancer.