every day more and more i feel like i dont deserve to be respected but sexualized. it also bothers me and hurts that what happened sophomore year counted as satutory rape. she was two years older i was under the age of 16....i think it counted or almost....
im so scared...im scared this idea i deserve to be raped will happen. im scared its because ( Read more... )

sigh i dont know what to think. dreams have changed. i want to go away find out more about myself. i...i just dont know....i want to date a guy so very bad. yet i still think about us in thw future together. but thats hard if i keep going away and traveling. i should leave this all up to fate. i dont want to leave you now because i know how fragile ( Read more... )

yeah yup not gonna work next year

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......thats what she did....i never wanted to do that again...what

are u afraid that no one else will love you like her? remember that same thought with K now L is in the same boat. im such a bad guy....im doing what K did arent i?

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this isnt fair...a really cute japanese guy likes me...and i like him...and i wont ever see him again

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i wish we were here longer i kind of want to date him....

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holy fuck i feel bad haha he likes me and i like him but im with luna

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i dont love you anymore. im so sorry. i just dont feeel anything. and it maybe just this trip but everything you do annoys me. i dont want to be nwar youm wel no thats not true. im really not sure. of anything. if we were staying in japan longer this would be the end. i would try my bsst to date shinnosuke but there is not point because we leave ( Read more... )

i can picture us together. but i cant picture when...in college or at some point i want to date a guy just to know what its like. then ill be all yours. 100% yours. i just cant shake that of not knowing what that be like. ugh y couldnt we meet later in life like after college. my issue with moving after college is how will we surrive? next year ( Read more... )