In the End

[ratherastory]

Title: In the End
Summary: Sam is going to save the world.
Characters: Sam, Dean, Jimmy, Amelia and Claire and assorted demons.
Rating: PG-13, for the whole demon-blood-thing and adult themes
Wordcount: 1,321
Disclaimer: It grieves me that I have yet to find a way to make it all mine. In the meantime, please don't sue.
Neurotic Author's Note #1:

Comments

[lavinialavender]

OH MY GOD. Such a good fic, even as it rips my heart out strand by strand. But this one of the best insights I've seen to where Sam is at this point in S4, how he's struggling to deal and reason to himself. And his desperate desire through it all is so heartbreaking, knowing what's coming.

[ratherastory]

Thank you!

I was a heck of a challenge, trying to get into Sam's mindset. He was so convinced he was doing the right thing, poor muffin, that he was willing to destroy himself and his soul if it only meant that he'd get to perform that last, vital act of sacrifice that would save the world.

[lavinialavender]

*cries* It's so tragic. POOR MUFFIN INDEED.

Sometimes I wonder if the writers said, "You know that saying 'The road to hell is paved with good intentions'? How can we make that as literal as possible?"

[ratherastory]

I've often considered starting an asphalting company called "Good Intentions."

[honeylocusttree]

Y'know, I spent most of S4 wanting to reach through the screen to smack the daylights out of Sam...so it's a bit odd that I enjoy fics dealing with his, er, issues from that season. I think because a lot was never really conveyed overtly, and so there are still some gaps to fill. This is a nice view of his motivations and how close to tipping over the edge he was by this point. Nice work!

[ratherastory]

The first time I watched Season 4 I mainlined it in about 24 hours (I had it on DVD), clutched my cat in my lap, and was horrified by what I was seeing. I think what came out of my mouth the most often was: "Oh, Sam, bunny, no!" Followed closely by "Oh, Dean!"

Show never gives us the same insights into Sam's feelings as it does for Dean. Sam is always closed off, bottles things up, and so I think that Season 4 made him seem a lot more unsympathetic, especially in light of Dean's 40 years in hell. Sam's four months pale in comparison, you know? But if you look back at Mystery Spot, at the rest of Season 3, Sam was already close to the breaking point before Dean died, and it was only his single-minded clinging to his belief that he'd save his brother that kept him going. Not surprising, then, that he lost control.

Uh, in short, thank you! I'm glad you liked the story. :)

[ratherastory]

Thank you so much! I'm sure someone must have done something like this somewhere. It's a big fandom. ;)

Poor Sam. Careening down the path to self-destruction because he was convinced it would save everyone.

[embroiderama]

This feels like a real look inside Sam's head...and it hurts.

[ratherastory]

It does hurt, good God. Poor Sam. So convinced that the only way to save everyone is to destroy himself.

[sistabro]

Ghostfacers was way easy compared to this episode. But you did a beautiful job, I love how adrift and alone and dogged Sam is. Also your art attempt beats mine by a billionty.

[ratherastory]

Aww, thank you!

I'm pleased you liked it. I am waaaay behind on my reading, as usual, so I don't think I got to your story yet. :) *sigh* Story of my life.

Poor Sam. He really did feel like he was all alone in the world by then. So did Dean, for that matter. Season 4 broke my heart, because the boys were so far apart, even when they were right there together.

[sistabro]

Oh I so hear you on being behind on reading. I'm maybe halfway through summergen and I think I've only read like five things from this challenge.