Season 8 non-thoughts

[ratherastory]

I have lots and lots of thoughts about Season 8. The problem is that I'm a little too anxious to post them here or anywhere else, because it feels like all I've seen online lately is people getting more firmly entrenched in a pro-$brother position. As though somehow one brother has to be unconditionally right and the other unconditionally wrong. A

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[de_nugis]

The revival of the brother wars (well, I suppose they never died down altogether, but this feels like s4 levels of bad and I only experienced s4 a little bit after the fact and that was traumatic enough) is doing a number on me as well.

Quite apart from shortage of time, I've gotten very, very cautious in what I read.

But it's still good to see you around and posting or not posting fan thoughts!

[ratherastory]

*hugs*

It's good to see you around too! I know things have gotten bad in your neck of the woods. Glad you're hanging in there.

I never saw the S4 brother wars, but I read SO many awful, awful posts during S5-6-7 from people who I thought were reasonable that this year it's made me pull back a lot, just to protect myself.

I wish I could quit fandom. I think it would free up a lot of time and make my life a lot less stressful. But then I'd miss out on all the good things about fandom too. It's a conundrum. Then again, I'm addicted, can't see how I'd give it up anytime soon.

[de_nugis]

I wasn't here in s4 either. But when I was first getting to know fandom and LJ I read a lot of people's back posts and episode reviews and . . . yikes. Between that and the fact that the first Spn venue I discovered, before I found LJ, was TWoP, I'm amazed I ever decided to plunge into these shark infested waters.

I hope the real life stress isn't too stressful. I wonder the same thing, sometimes, whether I might do better to give up on fandom, given that at the moment something more easily gratifying might be nice to have in my life. Especially since I have barely managed to read fic for months. But the good of the company and preoccupation and escape from the rest of life still outweighs the bad, and anyway, like you, I'm an addict.

[strgazr04]

You're supposed to love it or hate it, but you're not allowed to like some parts and not others. God forbid I enjoy the show but at a lesser level of involvement than I used to feel.You summed up exactly how I feel with this. I'm enjoying the show and I still look forward to it each week but it's almost like I wanna watch it while peeking from behind my fingers, you know? And it's not even because anything about SPN scares me at all lol. It's just so....hurty. I think if this was a dvd set where I could move through the storyline to understand the bigger picture, it would be easier. Right now we are left in the dark, and purposely so I think. Carver did keep saying it was all about perception so idk. Sam keeps saying he told Dean why he didn't look for him, but he really hasn't. Until they realize this and actually hash things out (without being possessed at the time mind you), they will never come back to the middle. I can't see it never being resolved though. I mean, there would be no show if they didn't. However, who knows if it'll

[ratherastory]

I just understand that the withdrawal from the show would hurt more than seeing those boys fight.

This, exactly. /o\

[harrigan]

I know exactly how you feel. I don't venture much outside my own FLIST either lately. You might enjoy this meta on the last ep, by ash48. She's very bi-bro and most of the comments so far are as well. (Esp. of course, the one by de_nugis!)

Glad you're still having a lot of feeeeeelings! Me too.

[ratherastory]

I saw the link, as she's on my flist, but I'm not clicking on anything these days. I can't trust that the comments won't suddenly devolve into "Sam is a spoiled asshole who doesn't deserve Dean!" or "I want someone to kick Dean's ass for being so awful to Sam!" :P I realize I'm not being rational, but I won't put myself through that after getting burned last week.

But yes, I am having ALL the feelings about this season!

[sinka]

I just read the meta (which is really really awesome and understanding both POVs) and the comments and I would tell you to read it. People is having really good thoutfull and deep conversations there, without wank and without hating on any of the brothers. And In fact they make some really good points that have made me like this episode a lot better.

[ratherastory]

And yet... *points down* It only takes ONE comment. I may sneak over there and try not to scroll too much. Eep.

[morganoconner]

Also, it feels like it's frowned upon to not have strong feelings about the season. You're supposed to love it or hate it, but you're not allowed to like some parts and not others. God forbid I enjoy the show but at a lesser level of involvement than I used to feel.

THIS, oh my god. O_O I feel like I'm being judged for still watching the show now that I don't enjoy it to the same levels I used to. It bugs the crap out of me, because YES, I still love the boys, and there are parts of this season I really love even if others have me feeling kind of meh, but I'm scared to ever post my 'meh' thoughts because I feel like I'll get bombarded with "YOU'RE HARSHING MY SQUEE!" and "WHY DO YOU STILL WATCH IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT!"

Can't I just live in my nice happy middle ground where there are pros and cons and likes and dislikes and everyone can enjoy it or not enjoy it however they want to?

Er. Sorry. I may have gone on a bit of a tangent there. ^^;

[ratherastory]

Right? Gah. Just because I don't enjoy some aspects of the show doesn't mean I am shitting all over it. I am just not as heavily invested as I used to be, that's ALL. >_

[tabaqui]

I have read some very good meta on season eight that is not only thoughtful and though-provoking, but also pro-BOTH boys.

Over at spn_heavymeta Really excellent stuff. :) I'd love to read your thinky thoughts, as well.

[ratherastory]

*points to post content*

Nope. Not doing it. But it's nice to know that there is good stuff happening out there. I just don't trust fandom right now to even read other people's meta, let alone post thoughts of my own.