Alpha and Omega part 89 - "Meditating On Life And the Stars"

[rapfic]

Woo! Part 89! This is a Kara/Gaeta thing, and a Big Table fic and I recommend reading the fics in order otherwise this won't make a lot of sense. The whole series goes AU after Season 2's episode Epiphanies

Comments

[rap541]

Thanks! :)

I really considered having Kara rescue him more um graphically, but as this is set up, there's no way he wouldn't be able to get away with it if he really wanted it. I think - and this is based on the show - that Felix is the kind of guy who can whip himself into a spiral of despair pretty easily but if he just *stops* and thinks, he can see the truth.

Kara was very hard to write - you should see what this looked like before my beta said "yeah, thats totally wrong".

Nice

[norgco]

A nice example of a man de-stressing after nearly letting the stress break him. Good to see.

Kara Thrace is basically sane in this. It just hit me.

I don't think I've seen her portrayed as rational in a fair while. I kept waiting for her to throw a bottle or shove someone's head in a bucket of water and she isn't going to, is she?

Look forward to more.

Re: Nice

[rap541]

Well, she might, if there's a card game or something. Yes, she is basically sane, and I'm always reminded, when I look thru this story, of why I started liking Kara in season one.

[daybreak777]

It would hurt Kara in a way that he couldn’t even fathom. He knew that, that deep down she had opened up to him in a way she had done with no one else.
Oh, Rappy. You are trying to kill me and nearly succeeding here.

“And I was being overdramatic,” he conceded.
Hee! That sounds like you, Rap. You are like Felix's big sister. :-)

"It was thinking of you that that stopped me.”

“I love you,” she whispered. “If you do this again, I’ll kill you myself. Don’t frakking think I wouldn’t. Understood?”
Yep. I'm kinda dead myself here. You know I love these two, right? I will miss your story sooooo much. But I am certainly savoring reading about these two together. :-)

[rap541]

Oh, Rappy. You are trying to kill me and nearly succeeding here.

Ugh, if you knew how this scene kicked my butt for the last month....

Hehehe I am not Felix's big sister... frankly I am pretty mean to him. :)

The next few parts will be wrapping up the loose threads about the creepy murdering monks and the glowy object.

[lorrainemarker]

He set the gun down on the old navigation console. I can’t do this, he decided. I can’t do this to myself. It would hurt the Admiral, it would hurt my friends like Dee, and Helo and Louis and Alghee. And it would hurt Kara.

Thank you. I hoped that Felix would realize how selfish suicide was and would stop himself before Starbuck had to rescue him. It really worked that Felix did realize it was selfish in a way that he couldn't be. It also made his realization that Kara loved him very touching.

[rap541]

Thanks! I really see Felix as someone who can really spiral down emotionally but if he can take a moment to stop and *think*, he can see what he's doing.

And in this 'verse, he has people who genuinely do care about him. Basically, when he thought about it, he realized Kara would just flip and kill herself thru smearing herself on the deck in her viper while drunk or something.

[zimrahil]

"you’re like a dog worrying a bone into splinters"

Very nice visual there, particularly with Felix and dogs in general from NC. Loved this chapter and how he talked himself out of it before she got there. I wanted to jump up and doing going "go Felix" at the end. This season 1 Kara reminds me of how much I liked her before she went all weird in the last few seasons.