writers_muses: 47.6. Letter.
[timeline-wise, written some time after Sirius moves in with Remus to 'lay low' as per Dumbledore's request. The letter is visible only to Sirius because it's written for him. Sirius mentioned is bigbadpadfoot]
Dear Sirius,
Since I cannot sleep, and since I don't want to wake you up, I opted to get out of bed and simply do this instead. I know I could have simply woken you up, but I haven't done this in far too long. And by 'this,' I mean write you a letter for no other reason than simply because I want to write to you. Don't get me wrong, I always want to write to you but this time I am not doing so because we are separated. After all, you are sleeping on a bed that we share. You are not away, and I am right here. This is a just-because letter.
I just want to tell you, I am so very glad you are here with me. I had missed you so very much. When I first saw you once more in the shack... Merlin, you have no idea how badly I wanted to kiss you. I didn't want to let you go, because I kept fearing that it was simply another dream. I thought you were an illusion, and that I would wake up to find myself alone again. Thankfully, that was not the case. You were very much there, and... Well, you know this now, but I hope you never forget that I never once stopped loving you. You have always meant so much to me. You will always mean so very much to me.
I know you are not happy, exactly, about the living arrangements of just...having to stay indoors so much. Things will change, however; I am sure of it. Please, just keep that in mind. There will be a day when your name will be cleared, the war will be over, and things will be fine again. We will be a family, the three of us. Things will go back to being right, or at least as much as they can. I promise.
It's so good to have you back again. I don't think I can put into words just how reassuring it is to simply listen to you breathe as you sleep. It is extremely soothing and reassuring, and... Heh, I haven't felt this safe and happy in a long, long while. Funny, that. We are in the middle of a war, and even if by morning when the Prophet comes I will most likely go back to being worried about what can happen, right now I am simply... I'm so afraid to write this, I'm so afraid I will doom myself by admitting it I am happy. You are here, with me. You're safe. Right now, focusing on that, it is helping me breathe so much easier that I am going to go back to bed so I can try to sleep again. I have a feeling that this time I will be able to do so.
I love you, Padfoot. So very much.
Always,
Remus
Dear Sirius,
Since I cannot sleep, and since I don't want to wake you up, I opted to get out of bed and simply do this instead. I know I could have simply woken you up, but I haven't done this in far too long. And by 'this,' I mean write you a letter for no other reason than simply because I want to write to you. Don't get me wrong, I always want to write to you but this time I am not doing so because we are separated. After all, you are sleeping on a bed that we share. You are not away, and I am right here. This is a just-because letter.
I just want to tell you, I am so very glad you are here with me. I had missed you so very much. When I first saw you once more in the shack... Merlin, you have no idea how badly I wanted to kiss you. I didn't want to let you go, because I kept fearing that it was simply another dream. I thought you were an illusion, and that I would wake up to find myself alone again. Thankfully, that was not the case. You were very much there, and... Well, you know this now, but I hope you never forget that I never once stopped loving you. You have always meant so much to me. You will always mean so very much to me.
I know you are not happy, exactly, about the living arrangements of just...having to stay indoors so much. Things will change, however; I am sure of it. Please, just keep that in mind. There will be a day when your name will be cleared, the war will be over, and things will be fine again. We will be a family, the three of us. Things will go back to being right, or at least as much as they can. I promise.
It's so good to have you back again. I don't think I can put into words just how reassuring it is to simply listen to you breathe as you sleep. It is extremely soothing and reassuring, and... Heh, I haven't felt this safe and happy in a long, long while. Funny, that. We are in the middle of a war, and even if by morning when the Prophet comes I will most likely go back to being worried about what can happen, right now I am simply... I'm so afraid to write this, I'm so afraid I will doom myself by admitting it I am happy. You are here, with me. You're safe. Right now, focusing on that, it is helping me breathe so much easier that I am going to go back to bed so I can try to sleep again. I have a feeling that this time I will be able to do so.
I love you, Padfoot. So very much.
Always,
Remus