Overrated, SPN
Title: Overrated
Fandom: Supernatural
Character: Dean
Rating: PG
Notes: Written for snow_blossoms for adventchallenge using this prompt: "Dean's favorite Christmas memory." Got a bit sadder than intended. Also a bit late.
If you were to ask Dean about his favorite Christmas he would probably say something about how Christmas was overrated. Because he actually does think that, would be hard not to, the way he's grown up. "The only good thing about Christmas is getting drunk and passing out, so it's over quicker", he might say.
But what is also true is that he's spent some pretty ok Christmases. None of them look like a postcard Christmas, there is never snow and happy families, there isn't lots of ugly Christmas ornaments and food, but there also isn't relatives he doesn't like, and there isn't terrible rows, so all in all, maybe he's actually drawn the long straw. He might tell you that, anyway.
If asked for his favorite Christmas Dean might say that it was the last Christmas with his mom. Thing is, Dean doesn't actually remember that. He thinks he should, thinks it should be imprinted on his brain, but he doesn't remember anything about Christmas before Sam. So he will make something up about a nice Christmas spent with both his parents. He knows he got a plushie toy, if only because dad told him about it, one Christmas when he got really drunk.
Sam. Sam is in the good Christmas memories. Almost all of them. The years he wasn't around Dean didn't spend Christmas at all. Except for the last one. With Lisa and Ben. That had been a pretty good Christmas, as these things go. Until he had thought about Sam and had to run to the bathroom to throw up, at least.
Still, Dean's best Christmas is the one in his mind, the one he thinks about when he thinks about Christmas. Having mom and dad still alive. Having Sam, happy and smiling beside him, with Jess cuddled up to him, Dean having someone too, Lisa maybe. Kids. Both his and Sam's. Mom and dad would be so happy to have grandkids, would spoil them rotten.
Dean doesn't think about that Christmas a lot, mostly when he's drunk, and can pretend to have forgotten crying himself to sleep in the morning.
Fandom: Supernatural
Character: Dean
Rating: PG
Notes: Written for snow_blossoms for adventchallenge using this prompt: "Dean's favorite Christmas memory." Got a bit sadder than intended. Also a bit late.
If you were to ask Dean about his favorite Christmas he would probably say something about how Christmas was overrated. Because he actually does think that, would be hard not to, the way he's grown up. "The only good thing about Christmas is getting drunk and passing out, so it's over quicker", he might say.
But what is also true is that he's spent some pretty ok Christmases. None of them look like a postcard Christmas, there is never snow and happy families, there isn't lots of ugly Christmas ornaments and food, but there also isn't relatives he doesn't like, and there isn't terrible rows, so all in all, maybe he's actually drawn the long straw. He might tell you that, anyway.
If asked for his favorite Christmas Dean might say that it was the last Christmas with his mom. Thing is, Dean doesn't actually remember that. He thinks he should, thinks it should be imprinted on his brain, but he doesn't remember anything about Christmas before Sam. So he will make something up about a nice Christmas spent with both his parents. He knows he got a plushie toy, if only because dad told him about it, one Christmas when he got really drunk.
Sam. Sam is in the good Christmas memories. Almost all of them. The years he wasn't around Dean didn't spend Christmas at all. Except for the last one. With Lisa and Ben. That had been a pretty good Christmas, as these things go. Until he had thought about Sam and had to run to the bathroom to throw up, at least.
Still, Dean's best Christmas is the one in his mind, the one he thinks about when he thinks about Christmas. Having mom and dad still alive. Having Sam, happy and smiling beside him, with Jess cuddled up to him, Dean having someone too, Lisa maybe. Kids. Both his and Sam's. Mom and dad would be so happy to have grandkids, would spoil them rotten.
Dean doesn't think about that Christmas a lot, mostly when he's drunk, and can pretend to have forgotten crying himself to sleep in the morning.