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[questionstar]

I really get out of the habit of... internet a lot. Though a lot of my online time I spend on my phone- window shopping on amazon, and pestering people over IM though it seems like there are fewer and fewer people I feel like talking to. :( There's the awesome part where I am logged into chats 24/7 with my phone, friends in my pocket! But eh, said

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[hobbit_cogs]

It's good to hear from you. I know I'm a stranger on the internet (I've loved your art for over six years, but that's not the same as knowing you), so it may be strange to receive sympathy from me, but for what it's worth--there's a LOT of pain underlying the things you're saying in this entry and I'm sorry you're in so much pain. Shame about the art you made while still learning how to create to your current standards, self-blame for the choices you made in which you tried the best you could to meet your needs, loneliness in the lack of friends around when you need them, anger and exhaustion about having to move so much, grief about financial hardship, confusion about how to even get your social needs met when your social landscape keeps changing online and off. I'm sorry people hurt you so much for being open and sensitive--the same thing happened to me, and it was really hard to relearn trust, especially in myself. I've been doing a lot of healing this year around that, and I hope you end up in a place safe enough to do that too. <

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Gosh, its almost as if you read my friends-only entries or something (now you can, hello new friend XD;)

This was really insightful and kind, thanks. I read some of your lj if you ever want someone to talk to instead of having people doing all the talking at you, let me know :3 Like i said i wish for more online people to converse with ;p

[hobbit_cogs]

Aww! <3 I'm delighted that my comment felt so good to receive. I'm on AIM a couple times a week--if you'd like my SN, send me a PM?