It's so hard....

[christiangrrr]

So I fell off the wagon once again.  Staying sober now... almost a week.  It's very hard to find the positive in any of it, though.  I've fallen and gotten up again.  It's just getting harder to find the motivation.

As much as I'd like to think that things will be alright, I have a hard time believing that.  I'm staying sober hoping that I'll snap

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[phoenix_kaji]

Considering that alcohol is a depressant, you're much more likely to be freed from the depression when you're not drinking. Good luck, and keep it up.

And having depression for years has taught me one thing: The really, really bad times don't last. They aren't forever. It will at least lighten up a little.

[christiangrrr]

Thanks for the support. My main poison is actually meth, which is actually real good at making one's emotions go on a roller coaster ride.

I am staying sober and today I feel better. I am going to meetings and I am choosing not to use today. And I feel alright.

Again, thanks for caring!

[phoenix_kaji]

No problem. These things are very difficult battles to fight, and it takes a lot of courage to do so.

Glad you're feeling a bit better.