Isn't it just lovely how some people can find new and interesting ways of hurting you just when you thought things were getting better?

*sigh*

Well, fuck you too, you little shit. Enjoy your crap life as someone else's problem. Don't bother trying to call me when they get tired of you too. I'm out. Over and done. Finally free.

How is everything - anything - ever going to be ok again?

I need to do something before I blow a fucking gasket. I'm so pissed off right now. I'm having the worst fucking day. And of course I am. How could today be anything but miserable? 

I am definitively not ok today. It would have been my Mom's 64th birthday today. I don't feel like leaving my house, much less my bed. Might have a friend over for lunch. Planning on going out for karaoke later tonight. But right now, I am just the epitome of not ok. It's bad inside my head and I don't know what to do with myself. 

Yeah, no. Fuck everything still.

How do I not just crumble into oblivion when it feels like the world wants to crush me like a bug? Fuck today. Fuck the news. Fuck lawmakers who can't keep their opinions the hell away from my body. Fuck insensitive idiots. Fuck liars. Fuck morons. Fuck...goddamn...everything.

FUCK EVERYTHING.

I am not fucking ok today. That's it. I don't have anything nice or flowery to add. I'm just not fucking ok.

Today is a day for being sad. I'm in bed, in my sweats, watching my favorite Cramps videos on YouTube and that's all I have planned for today. I am not putting anything else on myself other than to relax and rest my tired head. This past weekend was a mixed bag of emotion between Jesse and I celebrating our 7-year anniversary on Saturday and then ( Read more... )

I just wanna fucking cry and that's all I wanna do today. Just fucking cry.