I feel so free. I'm beyond guilt, and I'm well on my way to being beyond failure. It took me years to figure out that there was no point in doing anything if my heart wasn't into it, if I was only doing it to make someone else happy. And I think I'm finally figuring out the difference between a single defeat and a final defeat... that a failure isn ( Read more... )

"At any rate, let us love for a while, for a year or so, you and me. That's a form of divine drunkenness that we can all try. There are only diamonds in the whole world, diamonds and perhaps the shabby gift of disillusion."

-- F. Scott Fitzgerald

How the fuck many family members can I lose in just a few months?

'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all...

I never really thought it was possible to completely burn out. I thought you could always keep going, keep working. It's all good, it's all peachy. I didn't think it was possible for me to get to the point where I was so exhausted that I started to hate what I had always loved most. I didn't really think it was possible until it happened ( Read more... )

This is about how much I hate myself: A short play by Erica Wozniak ( Read more... )

It is impossible for anyone to discipline me because I punish myself far more severely than anyone else could ( Read more... )

I have decided that I would much rather be a mathematician than a physicist, except I'm not very good at thinking, so maybe I should just go to medical school or something. Or law school -- I've always been good at finding creative ways to bend the rules. But I don't like people very much, so I'm actually unable to go to either medical or law ( Read more... )

I'm having a little internal battle because every time I look at a single variable calculus book I'm like, "that's easy shit" and then I look at a multivariable one and I throw up a little ( Read more... )

Intellectuals are wrong all the damn time and it would be nice if people occasionally had the balls to disagree with them ( Read more... )

My mom took me to Clinique and asked me to buy some makeup and pretend that I didn't know her so that they would think we were shopping independently and we could get two of the free sample bags they were giving away. I discovered that I absolutely cannot hold my own at a makeup counter. I figured lipstick was the route I should take in my ( Read more... )