You had a new dream, it was more like a nightmare

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So it's been about two months since I last updated. Oops. ._., A lot of things have happened since mid-June, though I can never figure out whether or not those things are noteworthy enough to write about here, so I just kept putting it off. And lately Tumblr has become a time-suck yet again, and I'm trying to figure out ways to use it less because

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[childings]

That Bobby Fuller Four song was on the first mixtape I ever got from the first guy I dated (I have no idea what happened to it, but still) so it has some special significance I guess

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Yeah, I got hooked on it thanks to you posting it on Tumblr. ;-)

[awakenyourfaith]

Welcome back! :) I've been looking at your blog the past couple of months, and I just love it

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Oh goodness :/ I'm so sorry that you've had a lot to contend with in terms of your dad's mom. I don't know if I'd be able to handle that very well either - I think anyone would be rattled. *hugs*

Yeah, it would make anyone pretty freaked out, and it certainly scares me, that's for sure. I really don't know what's going to happen next; my dad is trying to do everything he can to make sure she doesn't have to go to the hospital, because if she does.....I don't want to think about it. -_-

But when I was reading all of the stuff on Tumblr and LJ, I felt as if I was really dumb for enjoying something that so many people had huge problems with. While most people did have really good and legitimate reasons for this constructive criticism as well as the evidence to back it up, there were a lot of other fans that were just pushing it, and crossing the line into needless nitpicking, not to mention bringing it up whenever they got the opportunity.You're definitely not dumb for enjoying it! It's always possible to realize that the stuff you

[awakenyourfaith]

I can't imagine the uncertainty that's going on with you and your family. I'm so sorry. *hugs you tightly* ♥ I hope things get easier

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Thanks. *hugs back*

I felt that the show was its own entity (to put it grandly), and that I couldn't do anything to change it, even if the results were so lackluster, so I stayed mum about my thoughts.

I agree that LoK was meant to be its own show, trying to do different things and just be different than Avatar, but I feel it really needed some of the original show's je ne sais quoi to make it good. And I'm pretty sure that the fans who complained know they can't really do much to change it, but it's sometimes therapeutic to vent one's disappointment, because not only can you come to terms with it, you can also find other people who share the same ideas you do.

I tend to fly by the seat of my pants. I know I am smart enough and not easily ruffled (usually), but sometimes my emotions get in the way, and I just have to keep learning.I try to do the same thing too; believe me, I've screwed up plenty of times before, and I've faced the consequences. :P It's only the fans who take criticisms too personally that you hear about, and

[mcollinknight]

Hey! (Oh man, I have just ABANDONED LJ, it's so terrible D:) So glad to hear that things are going so much better, that's a lot of things to accomplish in a year (and oh man, that sushi place sounds AMAZING. DO WANT). I've been really loving Monsters and Men (and Marina and the Diamonds, obviously for different reasons :P) lately.

So sorry to hear about your dad's mom, I hope the situation gets better - glad to hear your parents are so involved with helping their parents, I know that's not always the case, especially when things get difficult.

much, much love (and luck in the job-and-volunteering searches!)

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YAY I MISSED YOUUUUUUUUUUUU~~~~ :D

Thanks for the encouragement; it's not always easy, and I'm moving slower than I'd like, but I'm glad I'm at where I'm at right now. ^_^; And I was gonna ask you about Of Monsters and Men, but I'm glad to see you've heard about them first. XD

glad to hear your parents are so involved with helping their parents, I know that's not always the case, especially when things get difficult.

Thanks. Though really, it's stressing my parents out to the max. Especially with my mom and her mom, the one who lives with us (she's the one with a whole rash of mental health problems; I plan on ranting about her in a future post). Being a caretaker has made my mom lose sleep, and she's been flying off the handle a little bit more often lately. We're trying to look for a visiting nurse to help out, but with both my parents being busy as they are it's not easy. :/ But thanks for the comments anyway; I hope they both get the support they need.

[mcollinknight]

I missed you tooooooooooo <3 <3

My roommate just got back from Osheaga in Montreal where she saw them live and apparently they were EXCELLENT. #jealuss

Yeah, I can only imagine, it must be super stressful for all of you, and it sounds like it's been really rough on your mom. It's such a tough position to be in for all of you, hopefully they can get in an awesome nurse to help.

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*hugs* <3

Wow, I'm totally jealous of her too; they seem like an amazing band live. O_o; Do you have any plans to go to a concert anytime soon? The last one I went to was over a year ago, and it'd be nice if I went to one in the near future.

Thanks. I've been trying to pester my folks into researching visiting nurses from time to time; I'm trying not to overdo it, but sometimes the stress gets to be too much, you know? :/

[lordes]

Noteworthy enough? Dear, it's your journal, everything you feel, do and think is noteworthy enough. We're your friends, we'll read no matter what.

Accepting what you have right now is a good thing. You already have one person you have a very special and rare connection with, be grateful for that. The more you want other things, the more you stop yourself from seeing what's already right before you. Something beautiful that makes you really happy. Stay in touch with K, the two of you seem to really compliment each other.

The small steps are what're making the big differences. Look at yourself from a year back, there's more peace in you now, more acceptance and calmness. You've all earned that by learning to deal with the things that happened (or whatever it is you're talking with your psychologist about). It's all about the mind, and you've definitely made some progress! School will come when you're ready, as will moving out and finding a job. Right now just focus on what you need, not on what you'd wantYour parents need to accept

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The more you want other things, the more you stop yourself from seeing what's already right before you.

School will come when you're ready, as will moving out and finding a job. Right now just focus on what you need, not on what you'd want

Yeah, these are really important things for me to keep in mind that I hadn't thought about before, so thanks for that. ^_^; I do try to think about all the good things I have right now; it's hard because I've always been inclined to focus on the negatives about myself, but I realize that and am trying to work on it. And yeah, I definitely need to differentiate what I need right now vs. what I'd like to have. It can be really hard to tell the two apart sometimes, though, because you might know you need to do something, but not at that particular moment. And sometimes I'm afraid I'll never be ready for school, moving out, or a job; I know I'm sure I'll do fine, but I can't shake that feeling anyway

[lordes]

Try and enjoy what you have, but not to ask for anything more. The moment you don't require anything else you'll truly be able to enjoy what's already there, and what else your'e given. You don't know if you'll ever be able to go back to school, and the only thing you can do is keep working on your problems and troubles. However, if you're going to pin yourself down on your want for school, you'll get stuck. What if you don't get it? You'll only beat yourself up over it, you'll get impatient and the only thing it'll bring is suffering, impatience and pain. If you don't want it, but are willing to accept that it might never come, then you'll be all the more able to enjoy it when it does crosses your path. Nobody knows what the Universe has planned out for us and the only thing we can do is deal with the choices and opportunities that are given to us, and to accept that we cannot have everything and that however dear something is to us, in time, that too will leave us

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if you're going to pin yourself down on your want for school, you'll get stuck. What if you don't get it? You'll only beat yourself up over it, you'll get impatient and the only thing it'll bring is suffering, impatience and pain.

I'm not too worried about whether or not I'll go back to school or get a job or whatever -- those things are pretty much certainties. ^_^; But yeah, I really shouldn't be impatient when it comes to these things; it's hard, because I have a tendency to compare myself to other people my age and the kinds of things they're accomplishing, even though I know better. :PPP

Yeah, I try not to let my grandmothers' problems get to me, because you're right, there's only so much I can do, after all. The situation makes the environment I live in stressful, though, and I think my problem is more trying to deal with that.

Book 2 isn't coming out until next summer, so it looks like we're gonna have to be real patient. ._