Paternal joys, such as they are.

Feb 10, 2008 12:11

OOC: Reposted from theatrical_muse from 8/3/2005, 32 of 50.

At what moment in your life did you feel most proud?



The first time my son drew on the power of the Continuum without help. He was trying to turn a blob of mud into dremoullin, a snack cake favored by the Tartatsin which tastes rather like a chocolate cupcake laced with oregano. A rather ridiculous thing to be trying to achieve, I admit, but the point isn't what he was trying to do, the point is that he did it, without my help or the aid of any other adult Q.

I suppose the equivalent for a mortal humanoid might be when your kid first walks, or first picks up blocks and stacks them, or something like that. Except, of course, that mortal humanoids are almost never the first parents their species has ever seen, so the nifty things their kids do just confirm that their children aren't defective. Everything my son does is something no Q has ever done before, because no Q has ever been a child before. So when I see him accomplish something normally only an adult Q could do, it's the most amazing thing I have ever seen... because it's new, and because *I* have created this newness. After five billion years of existence, I never thought I'd see something new again, let alone create it.

What is the biggest obstacle you have overcome in your existance?

I probably should say something funny here about overcoming the stupidity of others or the stultifying boredom of the Continuum or something like that, but to be honest, I'm not in the mood.

The biggest obstacle I have overcome in my existence is my own nature. I'm a Q. We are not, by nature, kind, gentle, loving or patient. We expect our fellows to be our equals, and those who are not our equals are our inferiors. We are proud, domineering, and self-sufficient. The idea that we could learn from an inferior creature like a mortal is utterly alien to us. And yet, if I hadn't been willing to learn from my study of humanity, I would never have achieved either of my greatest accomplishments in life-- the dismantling of the old, calcified structure of the Continuum to make room for the freedoms I've been fighting for for millions of years, or the creation of my son. And if I had not been willing to bend down and reach out to something far less powerful and knowledgeable than me, to help such a being rise to my level instead of punishing them for being stupid, I would never have managed to be a halfway decent father. (Of course the jury is perhaps out on whether I qualify for "halfway decent" in that regard...)

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