Looking Over the Edge

[pursuingkrishna]

I've been well awful in my posting lately, but I just haven't felt much need to blather on about inconsequential phenomena. I'm fairly inebriated tonight, so what else should I do but attempt to post a thoughtful and meaningful entry

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[pursuingkrishna]

I think I found that whole colouring exercise a bit simplistic for what I believed was meant to be a serious session. I know you have to start somewhere, but the emotional chart with colour association wasn't even analysed when I returned with it. I was never asked why I chose certain colours, so I felt there was no point to it except to provide a half hour distraction for me instead of self-harming. I was, quite obviously, annoyed.

I suppose when you only have, oh, two or three people to turn to in those down times, you feel like a burden because they always hear about it. I'm not very good at expressing myself over the usual "I'm depressed. I wish I could die" format that often accompanies the clearly melancholy. Therefore, I feel that if I can't express it, I shouldn't bother. I'm finding other activities banal and tedious, though, so it's difficult to try and find a distraction when none of them appeal, aside from sleep. Even literature has lost its sense of awe and charm. Perhaps I'm far too deep into it this time. *shrugs* Oh

[stephylouise]

I hope you're alright PK. I understand I'm on the opposite side of the Atlantic, but I'm always here if you want to talk.
When I feel low I don't like to talk about it tbh, I tend to bottle it all up, which isn't always a good thing because it reaches such a scale that I just cry. I'm feeling more positive about things lately though, which is good.
It ain't helped by the fact that I'm incredibly sensitive; I take everything to heart and it puts me in a bit of a vulnerable position sometimes. *cuddles*

As I said, I'm always here if you want to talk xxx